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00:01my fiance saved me from drowning but he was left with a disability on our wedding night
00:08he made me have sex with his brother the sinclair family needs an heir and you look like his late
00:15fiance you could ease his grief this is what you owe him that was when i learned that the day
00:21i
00:21fell into the ocean his brother's fiance had fallen in too they couldn't save her one lost
00:27a beloved future sister-in-law the other lost the love of his life so when i opened my eyes
00:35again
00:35when nathaniel came to rescue me i swam as hard as i could in the opposite direction
00:43found the girl who was sinking pushed her towards nathaniel
00:57quick save her
01:04then i crawled onto the beach shaking uncontrollably not far away nathaniel had reached the shore before
01:10me he'd already handed the drowning girl rosa over to the paramedics he looked up our eyes met
01:19he took a towel from his bodyguard and draped it over my shoulders
01:24don't catch a cold thanks i pulled away from nathaniel's hand and stood up on my own
01:30people from the yacht were making their way over
01:33my head felt foggy but i remembered this moment clearly
01:37today sinklins had organized a yacht trip inviting several elite families they did business with
01:42no one expected the accident the hull scraped against rocks
01:46i happened to be standing on the deck and stumbled overboard from the impact
01:53in my past life i couldn't swim i instinctively clung to nathaniel when he came to save me but i
02:00dragged him under he choked on water slammed into the rocks and broke his leg
02:06he'd spend the rest of his life in a wheelchair it also kept nathaniel from saving rosa
02:13she drowned his brother julian never got to marry the woman he loved he carried that regret for the
02:21rest of his life after marrying nathaniel all i received was indifference and humiliation
02:27i didn't want that tragedy to repeat that's why i learned to swim thank god this time both nathaniel
02:35and rosa were fine and i didn't have to marry him anymore i was just about to tell mr sinclair
02:40to call off the arrangement a figure stepped in front of me dad i pulled her out of the ocean
02:44and felt
02:45nothing not a thing if i can watch her almost drown and not care whether she lives or dies i
02:50shouldn't be marrying her tell the ashfords call off the engagement nathaniel's voice carried on the
02:57breeze and it sent a chill down my spine he'd been reborn too just like me he didn't want to
03:07be married
03:08again your marriage was only for family gain feelings can be cultivated nathaniel before nathaniel could
03:14respond i spoke to mr sinclair mr sinclair you can't cultivate feelings that were never there
03:21and forcing two people together who don't want each other won't end well for either family
03:26since nathanian has made it clear he feels nothing for me i won't force it i hope you'll respect our
03:32decision nathaniel froze turned his head toward me perhaps he was shocked or maybe he was looking
03:39through me seeing someone else probably because what i said sounded like something rosa once said
03:44but who would have guessed nathaniel wanted his brother's fiance in our past life his brother loved
03:50rosa nathaniel didn't want to tear the family apart so he settled for me instead i lowered my eyes
03:57avoiding his gaze mr sinclair sighed you two used to go horseback riding and play golf together
04:05inseparable i thought the arrangement would make you both happy didn't realize neither of you wanted it
04:11fine i'll talk to the ashford's the engagement is off thank you mr sinclair
04:21i got up to leave i was about to get into the car heading back to the hotel when someone
04:25called out
04:26miss ashfield i turned around rosa had recovered miss ashfield don't you remember me
04:33the children's home in savannah we've met before five years ago i went with my grandmother to
04:40volunteer at a children's home i happened to hear a girl crying a staff member told me it was the
04:46girl
04:46the bennett's had recently claimed as their illegitimate daughter she'd been falsely accused
04:50of stealing and sent back to the home as punishment she was the bennett's seventh illegitimate child
04:56salad thin still wearing a flimsy dress in the dead of winter head down timid afraid of everything
05:03i felt sorry for her i started visiting regularly bringing clothes and food the children's home was
05:09near our family's horse ranch i took her riding to lift her spirits taught her to read taught her to
05:15shoot then my grandmother got sick we had to rush back to boston to see a doctor i didn't even
05:21get the
05:21chance to say goodbye to rosa i never imagined she'd turn out to be nathaniel's future sister-in-law
05:27rosa bennett she changed so much no wonder i didn't recognize her you told me that in life
05:34you have to fight for what you want so i fought for the truth fought for the treatment i deserved
05:39in
05:39the bennett family when i came back to boston i tried to find you but i never got the chance
05:44when i
05:45heard you'd be on this trip i came along i've been trying so hard to get closer to you miss
05:50ashfin
05:51it hit me then the colors rosa wore were the colors i liked her accessories her makeup they
05:58were styles i always used no wonder nathanian said i looked like her in our past life
06:05she's imitating me suddenly someone blocked my view nathaniel had his back to me shielding rosa
06:13as if he was afraid i'd bully her miss bennett had a scare from the fall she needs rest
06:19i'll take you back rosa blinked confused miss ashford fell in too you're her fiance
06:25shouldn't you be taking care of her why are you sending off a stranger instead
06:30at this point rosa hadn't been engaged to nathania's brother yet i couldn't see nathaniel's expression
06:38nathaniel and i already called off the engagement he's not my fiance anymore
06:42with that i got into the car as the door closed nathaniel's figure flashed past tall straight-backed
06:50standing like a statue not like the man from my past life the one i'd put in a wheelchair
06:56i exhaled this time around i wasn't the one who ruined everything
07:02the truth is i always knew nathaniel never wanted to marry me the day the engagement was announced
07:09he'd been out riding he actually rode his horse straight into the courtyard of our family estate
07:16so you're elena ashford i'm never marrying some pampered princess
07:21i had a temper back then i grabbed the riding crop right out of his hand and yanked him off
07:26the
07:26horse swung myself up into the saddle even circled him once just to rub it in and i elena ashford
07:33wouldn't waste my time on a spoiled brat who can't even keep hold of his own horse nathaniel
07:38didn't get angry instead he stared at me blindly for a long time he couldn't help asking what else can
07:44you do golf skydiving shooting too many to list as the ashford family's eldest daughter i'd been
07:52groomed from childhood academics extracurriculars everything i had to be the best after that day
08:00he kept asking me to hang out he'd often just look at me and smile without saying a word
08:06i asked him what he was looking at i'm looking at my future wife my heart sped up against my
08:12will
08:13for the first time my hands shook while holding a shotgun smooth talker only for my wife
08:28nathaniel came over to help me load the shells then glanced at my hand most people shoot right
08:32handed you're just like a friend of mine she likes to shoot left-handed too i thought she was the
08:38only one
08:38with so many people in the world there are bound to be some who are similar
08:43i didn't think much of what nathaniel said i spent every day with him
08:51we even planned a trip around the world after the wedding and then the accident happened the nathaniel
08:59who once loved horseback riding and competitive shooting would never get on a horse again
09:07everyone mocked him called him a cripple my parents wanted to cancel the engagement
09:12but i stubbornly married him anyway
09:20i'm the one who ruined him i couldn't abandon him the accident changed nathaniel into a different person
09:27no more smiles dark hollow eyes on our wedding night he sat in his wheelchair and spoke flatly
09:35i'm disabled i can't do that but the sinclair family needs an heir
09:40go to my brother you look like his late fiance you could ease his grief
09:48you owe him this
09:53the day i fell into the ocean rosa had fallen too
09:57the friend nathaniel always talked about his brother julian's fiance
10:05thunder cracked outside the window my mind went blank i'd ruined three people's lives
10:16that night i walked julian's bedroom in my when when adding dress numb and hollow
10:21when julian heard what nathaniel had said he sighed my brother's always been reckless don't
10:27take it to heart i'll sleep in the guest room you rest here before leaving julian poured me a glass
10:34of wine steam curled upward dampening my eyelashes i opened my mouth but my throat was
10:41so dry no sound came out i'm sorry felt too small too useless the guilt ate at me i knew
10:49nathaniel
10:49resented me so i threw myself into taking care of him every morning at dawn i'd get up and cook
10:56something nutritious bring it to him while it was still warm the doctor said your body needs proper
11:02nourishment i learned some new recipes from the nutritionist they're really good do you want to
11:08try don't bother with lunch i'm not hungry he was talking to the housekeeper he didn't hear me
11:15didn't see me i walked over carefully when did you get here just now no response after that
11:23he sipped his water in silence i was invisible then a commotion came from outside it was faint
11:31i couldn't quite hear it nathaniel set down his cup and spoke to the housekeeper again if they want
11:36to set off fireworks let him don't worry about disturbing me so it wasn't that he couldn't hear
11:40me he just didn't want to bitterness flooded my chest but what right did i have to feel hurt
11:49sometimes nathaniel would look at me with an expression i couldn't read rosa liked wearing
11:54vintage dresses with pearls too too bad she never got to see the custom dress my brother ordered for
12:00her or the pearl necklace i won for her at auction rosa liked putting cinnamon and honey in her coffee
12:05too
12:06she said it was like dessert in a cup elena stop copying her to get my attention you'll never compare
12:14but i'd been doing those things long before i ever met nathaniel now it was called imitation i choked
12:20back tears and gave up everything i loved why did i have to be the villain then one night nathaniel
12:26was
12:26drunk he bit my lip and murmured tenderly rosa that's when it all clicked why nathaniel was so angry
12:33at me for copying rosa he wanted his brother's fiancee if i hadn't looked like her he never would have
12:41agreed to marry me in the first place the night air was cold it seeped into my bones i became
12:46the
12:46second nathaniel quiet hollow dark the one time i was happy was my first birthday after the wedding
12:54my parents came to celebrate the table was full of my favorite foods my mom even made pasta by hand
13:01i smiled for the first time in ages nathaniel happened to wheel past tomorrow is rosa's death
13:09anniversary how can you still have the nerve to laugh like a bucket of ice water it drowned the last
13:16spark of joy i had left the pasta didn't taste good anymore i thought to myself if god exists could
13:24i
13:24please go back and do it over save rosa i don't want to be the villain anymore i didn't expect
13:32it but
13:33when i opened my eyes again my wish had actually come true nathaniel and i had both started over
13:39in our past life he'd held back because she was his brother's fiancee now rosa hadn't been promised to
13:45julian yet nathaniel had his chance so let him and julian compete in this life we go our separate ways
13:53whatever happens i got back to the hotel someone was waiting in the hallway holding a cup of coffee
14:02with cinnamon and honey miss ashford this is from mr nathaniel he said this is your favorite since it's
14:09cold and you're prone to catching a cold he hopes you'll rest early and stop wandering around was
14:14nathaniel warning me not to cause trouble for rosa when had i ever had a problem with her i shook
14:19my head
14:19with a tired smile throw it out i don't like it i didn't go looking for nathaniel like i had
14:27in our
14:27past life he didn't come looking for me either every day he went to the floor where rosa was staying
14:34i heard he personally cooked dinner for her yesterday this morning he'd sent over a huge bouquet of flowers
14:39in four years across two lifetimes i was just now learning nathaniel could cook good he could finally chase
14:45the person he wanted the next day mr sinclair organized a shooting event everyone headed to the
14:52outdoor range rosa arrived early when she saw me her eyes lit up like she was presenting a prize she
14:59handed me a shotgun miss ashfield i cleaned it for you she frowned looking uneasy lately nathaniel keeps
15:07coming to see me i have no idea what he wants i try to send him away but he won't
15:14leave
15:16rosa was sensitive she overthought everything i understood she was worried i'd misunderstood
15:24nathaniel and i were in an arranged marriage there was no affection between us
15:29now that the relationship is over i'm actually relieved if you like him go ahead and accept his
15:34attention i'm just glad you don't hate me miss ashford we haven't shot together in so long you go
15:41first okay i just chambered around i heard a scoff nathaniel walked up beside me you got a second
15:52chance and you're still copying people everyone else shoots right-handed only rosa likes to use her
15:58left and you just have to do it too all to get my attention he didn't bother lowering his voice
16:06for
16:06that second part rosa heard it her brows nodded copying me miss ashfield is the one who taught me to
16:11shoot she's basically my teacher rosa looked at me eyes full of admiration nathaniel froze like he
16:18wanted to ask something someone interrupted the restaurant has lunch ready mr sinclair wants everyone
16:23to come over julian walked toward us unlike nathaniel's brash energy his brother was calm and reserved
16:37i remembered now when we first arrived at the island julian had gotten sick and had been bedridden
16:43he couldn't even go on the yacht trip the first time he came out in our past life was when
16:48he received
16:48the news of rosa's death watched them cover her with a white sheet now julian was well enough to
16:54be outside but his fiancee was being pursued by his own brother i looked at julian with something close
17:00to pity miss ashford let's go after lunch we'll come back and shoot some more before she finished
17:07we were separated nathaniel squeezed between us and held out the jacket he'd brought to rosa
17:13temperature's dropping put this on no thanks i'm not cold miss ashford should keep warm though rosa
17:21took the jacket and tried to drape it over my shoulders i instinctively stepped back i didn't
17:26want to touch anything of nathaniel's but i lost my footing stumbled someone caught me from behind arms
17:34firm and steady julian's hand rested on my shoulder careful there's a step behind you
17:45the jacket ended up back in nathaniel's hands his face was dark he was not happy julian didn't seem
17:53great either his eyes were lowered only rosa was oblivious chattering away to me she had no idea two
18:02men were losing their minds over her i let rosa ramble in my ear as we walked into the hotel
18:06restaurant
18:07she sat beside me nathaniel and julian sat across from us alongside other heirs and socialites
18:14this island trip wasn't just for fun mr sinclair was also playing matchmaker after all the sinclair's
18:20were the top family in boston one word from him and any match could be sealed so before long a
18:27young
18:27couple who'd hit it off came over hoping mr sinclair would speak to both their families about an engagement
18:33nathaniel walked over too dad actually i've liked rosa for a long time could you talk to mr bennett
18:40ask him to let me marry her it's all i want i wasn't surprised with a second chance there was
18:47no way
18:47he'd let himself live with regret again while rosa sat there stunned julian walked over
18:56dad please i want to marry elena ashford my eyes went wide nathaniel whipped around and blusted out
19:06no you can't marry her mr sinclair looked at nathaniel confused why can't your brother marry elena she's
19:15rough not exactly ladylike julian is the future head of the family he's handsome his wife should
19:21match him i'm asking dad not you nathaniel's throat clenched he couldn't find another angle
19:26of attack my head was starting to throw was julian doing this to get back at nathaniel did he think
19:33nathaniel and i still had something so he'd use me as leverage julian seemed like the type who didn't
19:39compete but he held grudges in our past life nathaniel got angry at me for dressing like rosa
19:44and knocked all the breakfast i'd made onto the floor julian happened to walk in his sleeve got
19:49stained it was a new shirt his first time wearing it julian said nothing but for seven straight days
19:56nathaniel didn't have a single clean shirt every one of them somehow got coffee spilled on it by julian
20:03i didn't want to get dragged into their mess again so i walked over i'm still young i'm not
20:09ready to get married mr sinclair set down his glass one of you wants to marry
20:14this one the other wants to marry that one you think i'm playing house with you the entire room
20:20went silent after all the sinclair's could bankrupt any of their families with a single phone call
20:25the tension didn't ease until mrs sinclair walked in but the marriage arrangement was still finalized
20:31rosa would marry nathaniel i would marry julian the sister-in-law from our past life became the younger
20:37brother's wife the younger brother's wife became the sister-in-law what kind of a mess was this
20:43my headache got worse i stepped outside for air julian followed nathaniel is impulsive he doesn't
20:50think about consequences i didn't want you going back to boston and being the butt of everyone's jokes
20:58that's why i brought up the arrangement of my father a brother should fix what his brother breaks
21:03but i'd rather be laughed at than marry into the sinclair family again i rubbed my temples nathaniel came
21:08outside too he glanced at me scoffed you're quite adept at juggling two men but stop copying rosa stop
21:16trying to get my attention i was about to snap back when julian spoke first show some respect to elena
21:23nathaniel choked his face twisted if being reborn wasn't so insane he would have told them everything
21:29about their past lives right then and there you're really going to marry her you know dad once he makes
21:35a decision when he's angry nobody changes his mind just focus on marrying rosa and stay out of my
21:41business mr sinclair was staying on the island a while longer everyone else drove back to boston
21:51at a rest stop along the way rosa came to find me miss ashfield i've been thinking about it for
21:57days
21:57i need to talk to you about this engagement with nathaniel he was your fiance before now he's mine i
22:04rosa looked miserable but i understood what she was feeling i don't mind i told you at the shooting
22:11range how i felt but do you like julian in our past life they were a couple if this life
22:18kept them apart
22:18again i'd feel guilty i barely know julian i can't call that like so was it one-sided on julian's
22:24part
22:25i was still guessing when i saw a familiar face julian carrying a box of pastries i heard you like
22:30chocolate mousse cake i sent someone to pick some up something to hold you over i just ate i'm not
22:35hungry actually i hadn't eaten at all over the past two days heading back to boston julian would
22:42occasionally find an excuse to bring me things i didn't want more contact with the sinclars every
22:47time i politely declined and kept my distance julian was used to it by now he pulled his hand back
22:52i
22:53didn't dwell on it turned around and walked away that night a sudden downpour hit everyone who'd been
22:59outside scrambled back to their cars i was about to make a run for it when a flash of blue
23:05gray caught my
23:06eye julian holding an umbrella over me his shirt half soaked raindrops still clinging to his eyelashes
23:15no rush i brought you an umbrella the rain was too heavy for the first time i didn't refuse him
23:23i
23:24thanked him quietly and walked with him towards the rv once i climbed inside i looked down and realized
23:30julian was completely soaked through he was taller than me he tilted the umbrella so far over to cover
23:36me that he'd taken the full force of the rain while i stood there dazed julian's bodyguard ran over and
23:43produced a travel cup he'd been keeping dry under his jacket i had someone grab this for you ahead
23:49of time drink it while it's hot so you don't catch a cold he popped the lid the smell of
23:53cinnamon and
23:54honey hit me a coffee made exactly the way i liked it i froze i liked my coffee with cinnamon
24:01and honey
24:02julian shouldn't have known that yet he only learned about it in our past life after i married into the
24:08sinclair family julian had been reborn too then why did he still want to marry me
24:18my thoughts tangled into knots julian didn't leave he stood at the rv door like he was waiting for me
24:25i shifted to the side i can't finish all this come up and have some too wait until the rain
24:31lets up before
24:32heading back sorry to intrude he climbed into the rv right then nathaniel walked past with an umbrella
24:40his eyes darkened but he said nothing he kept walking i faintly heard someone ask where are you
24:45going in this rain there's a bird over there with a hurt wing rosa feels bad for it i'm going
24:51to move
24:52it somewhere dry i didn't catch the rest julian closed the door shut out nathaniel's voice
25:00rain was getting in closing the door helps after that night on the rv julian started showing up more
25:09he gave me an expensive diamond necklace and he would also lower himself to make funny faces to cheer me
25:15up i couldn't figure out his angle i didn't dare accept any of it but nathaniel seemed determined to
25:22one-up him whatever julian gave me nathaniel gave rosa the same thing rosa wasn't thrilled about it
25:31rosa came to my home one day to chat and suddenly let out a heavy sigh
25:36miss ashford do you think like everyone else that nathania is really into me because i don't see it
25:41there's not a shred of real feeling in his eyes i think he doesn't actually like me at all every
25:47time
25:47he gives me something he looks competitive that's it there's always this distance between us maybe
25:54he's just bad at expressing himself because in our past life nathaniel's heart was full of rosa
26:00he'd murmur her name in his sleep awake seven out of ten sentences were about her rosa rested her chin
26:06on her hand sulking even if he does like me he likes the version of me that's confident and bright
26:12the rosa you created not the real me scared in a secure overthinking everything the first time i
26:21complained to him about the long drive back to boston that the road was bumpy and i was tired he
26:26frowned and said that wasn't like me in his head i should always be carefree always smiling just like
26:32you miss ashford but the real me is exactly what he doesn't want my hand paused mid-pour i'd never
26:38considered whether nathaniel loved the real rosa or the version of me he saw reflected in her i heard
26:43you and nathaniel spent six months together always hanging out around boston you never liked him not
26:50even for a second no
26:57the moment i said it there was a bang something hit the ground outside i opened the door nathaniel stood
27:03there stone-faced picking up a fruit platter he dropped slipped out of my hand i'll go get another
27:08one he walked away i don't even like fruit but he thinks i do so he keeps sending baskets of
27:14it every
27:14other day i didn't like fruit either some looked beautiful but tasted sour left a bitter aftertaste
27:21a lot like my marriage to nathaniel in our past life thinking about it all i tasted was bitterness
27:26not worth remembering back in boston rosa and i went our separate ways i told my parents about the
27:32broken engagement with nathaniel you two were fine before you left you'd already planned a trip around
27:37the world after the wedding what changed she has her own mind let's not push julian's not bad either
27:42harvard grad future head of the sinclair family clean personal life i've dealt with him before steady
27:47reliable miles better than his brother nathaniel but i refuse to make the same mistake
27:52marrying another man whose heart belonged to someone else except mr sinkhole's word was law
27:58going against it would hurt my family's business out of options i had someone leak news that i was sick
28:06stall the wedding i counted the days when one illness ran its course i'd invent another stayed home
28:14i heard nathaniel's side was already getting wedding suits tailored meanwhile julian and i hadn't even seen
28:21each other since we got back i was living comfortably in my bubble a full two weeks passed
28:28mom came in with breakfast and couldn't help sighing why are you faking sick if julian finds out
28:34he'll think you look down on him when you marry in life will be harder for you
28:43it won't be a clear quiet voice interrupted mom i looked up julian stood there apologetic i heard
28:50elena's allergic reaction was severe i had someone fly in specialized medication from overseas i was in
28:55a rush to deliver it so i came in without ringing the bell mom made polite small talk and left
29:00giving
29:01us space i sat up straight guilty getting caught faking sick who wouldn't be embarrassed but julian didn't
29:06mention what he just overheard he set down the medication i've used this before for allergies
29:11works well no side effects then he went quiet i didn't know what to say either
29:19until he looked up and met my eyes like he'd made some kind of decision elena we've both started over
29:25why won't you give me a chance just try i'm no worse than nathaniel he came right out and said
29:30it
29:30reborn i took a deep breath you're in love with rosa i don't want a husband who's dreaming about
29:36someone else while lying next to me julian went still for a second who said i'm in love with rosa
29:40the person i love has always been you
29:45the timing was just never right i couldn't say it i stared at him julian told me everything years ago
29:51he'd gone to the children's home in savannah for a charity event he saw me walking past and fell for
29:57me on the spot he was planning to visit my family and propose an engagement as soon as the event
30:01ended
30:02but when he called mr sinclair he learned i was nathanian's newly arranged fiance he had to let it
30:08go but he kept putting off marriage which drew questions then nathaniel started asking if he had
30:14anyone he liked julian fumbled he couldn't say my name he happened to spot rosa pointed at her just to
30:21get nathaniel off his back but nathaniel took it upon himself to go to the bennett family behind julian's
30:28back and arranged the engagement bro it's great that you've got someone you like you too high to
30:33go yourself so let what handle it i think it is me trying something new julian was furious but he
30:38couldn't exactly say he was in love with his brother's fiance before he could figure out how to
30:43undo the engagement he never asked for the accident happened nathaniel crippled rosa drowned
30:53if i just told you how i felt that day at the children's home maybe none of it would have
30:58happened in our past life you were my brother's wife i had to keep my distance otherwise people
31:04would have talked about you behind your back now i understood why julian never blamed me for costing
31:10him his fiancee why he looked after me why he remembered i liked cranberries in my ginger tea
31:15i thought he was just kind and attentive i didn't know it was because the person he loved was someone
31:20else entirely then i remembered that new shirt of julia's from our past life it was near christmas
31:26i'd given him one as a gift he and than thaniel each got one nathaniel's went straight to the bottom
31:32of a drawer julian kept his for for nearly a month before he finally wore it he wasn't holding a
31:37grudge
31:38about the shirt getting ruined he was angry because the gift i gave him was ruined while i sat there
31:44frozen someone burst into the room elena i found you the allergy medication take this and you'll be
31:51fine whatever the reaction is nathaniel stopped dead his eyes locked onto julian sitting beside me
31:56what are you doing at her house elena is my fiancee why wouldn't i be here the real question is
32:03what
32:03you're doing barging into her home nathaniel faltered i i came to drop off medicine fiancee or not you don't
32:10just show up at a woman's house unannounced you're not married yet if someone gets the wrong idea how's
32:14that going to look for her funny how you didn't think about that when you were trashing her reputation
32:18on the island nathaniel he had nothing he wanted to argue but there was no argument to make
32:27he slammed the box of medicine down and left julian left too before he walked out he said to me
32:34elena i
32:34already lost you once everything i'm doing now is just so i don't lose you again my head was spinning
32:39i couldn't name what i felt about julian after thinking it over i decided to send the medication
32:44back to nathaniel i didn't want to owe him anything i'd barely stepped outside the house nathaniel appeared
32:51from behind a tree he hadn't left he turned his face away his voice was low and tight you can't
32:57marry my brother you can marry someone else but i can't just because i was married to you once i'm
33:05bound to you for every lifetime the color drenned from his face after a long pause he forced out a
33:11sentence my brother loves rosa wasn't that obvious enough in our past life he wasted away after she died
33:18but julian wasted away because nathaniel made it impossible to eat or sleep in our past life
33:23nathaniel's leg would ache every night he'd moan and groan for hours during the day he'd throw fits
33:29and smash things let alone nathaniel even in my past life i was skin and bones besides the person
33:36julian loved had always been me for the first time i looked at nathaniel like i was looking at an
33:40idiot
33:41i called security to escort him out but mr sinclair asked why a date hadn't been set yet
33:46i couldn't keep it up i announced my recovery for a brief moment i wavered maybe giving julian a
33:52chance wouldn't be the worst thing but the day julian and i went to pick a wedding date something went
34:00wrong the date they picked for me and rosa isn't good i need a new one he pulled the consultant
34:07away
34:08then he nitpicked every suggestion i don't like the date sounds unlucky that one's no good either
34:15pick again julian told me to go home he'd wait for nathaniel to finish i agreed the next day i
34:23heard
34:24nathaniel had been there until dark and still hadn't picked a date julian ended up going to someone else
34:30to finalize hours i figured nathaniel was just trying to annoy me but when it came time to order
34:36the aisle runner for the ceremony he showed up again bought out every supplier i switched to another
34:43store nathaniel bought that one out too as if anticipating my question he spoke first i want
34:51the aisle runner that goes all the way from rose's house to the venue is that a problem you'd go
34:57this far
34:57just to stop me from getting married impressive commitment nathaniel clenched his fists then he
35:04scoffed don't flatter yourself i want to give rosa the best i want her walking down that aisle like a
35:12queen when julian heard about it he said nothing the next day he made a call and had materials shipped
35:22in from another state as the wedding got closer nathaniel appeared in front of me more and more
35:27he'd snap the jewelry i'd already picked poach my makeup artist with a higher offer julian handled
35:34it every time but nathaniel kept coming back and it was getting unbearable i finally snapped you've got
35:42your own wedding to plan why do you keep sabotaging mine what do you actually want nathaniel pressed
35:48his lips together said nothing just as i was about to storm off he asked what if i told you
35:55i can't
35:55accept you marrying my brother i tried to forget you and start over but i can't when i'm with rosa
36:06all i see is you
36:11at first nathaniel had been thrilled rosa wasn't engaged yet he had his shot but the more time
36:17he spent with her the more she felt like a second elena ashford rosa liked wearing purple vintage
36:23dresses elena liked purple vintage dresses rosa was a great shot elena was a great shot rosa dotted a
36:31beauty mark below her eye elena did the same the difference was rosa complained she voiced her
36:38her frustrations elena never did even when nathaniel ignored her in their past life mocked her she
36:46never once said she was hurt
36:49every time nathaniel noticed these things something felt off like rosa had torn through
36:55a veil and was standing before him as her true self but it wasn't what he wanted
37:02nathaniel gripped his head i can't tell you and rosa apart anymore you're not sisters but you're so
37:09alike elena i think i might like you more i'm about to marry your brother how do you have the
37:16nerve to
37:16say this then i caught a figure in my peripheral lition rosa standing not far away she'd heard
37:23everything nathaniel said you don't have to feel torn anymore nathaniel i already went to your father
37:30and asked him to call off our engagement nathaniel stopped breathing i invited rosa over put an ice
37:38pack on her knee to get that engagement dissolved she'd knelt in mr sinclair's office for a long time
37:45her knee was swollen does it still hurt a little pain now is better than a lifetime of it
37:51i don't want to marry nathaniel and spend every day guessing what he's thinking
37:55getting more and more miserable you taught me that miss ashvin fight for what you want this is
38:01the result i wanted actually i can tell the person nathaniel likes is you when he's with me he's always
38:08bringing you up you're the only one who gets a real reaction out of him happy angry sad all of
38:14it
38:14i didn't know what to say but rosa hugged me i like you too miss ashford
38:23you're from a great family you're beautiful you ride you shoot you've got perfect grades
38:30you wiped my tears and taught me things i'd never understood who could resist liking you so i hope
38:35you'll be happy from now on i hope you never look back nathaniel doesn't deserve you i went still
38:41then i lifted my arms and hugged her back rosa i hope you soar i hope you'll always be yourself
38:47then came my wedding to julian nathaniel as julian's brother had to attend tradition required
38:54him to address me formally now he had to call me sis he stood in front of me for a
38:59long time
39:00refused to open his mouth the guests kept urging him nathaniel's voice came out horny like the word
39:07had been dragged out of him i nodded when i turned to go toast the guests someone called out behind
39:14me elena i didn't stop walked away without looking back that night julian and i were in his private
39:21townhouse he said the same thing he'd said in our past life i'll sleep in the guest room get some
39:27rest
39:28julian grabbed his pillow and blanket and left i exhaled i'd married him because our families needed it
39:37getting past the wall inside me would take time i took off my dress and was about to lie down
39:43when
39:43i noticed something carved into the nightstand roses my favorite flower meanwhile at the reception venue
39:51nathaniel had to stay behind to see off the guests on julian's behalf when it was rosa's turn he went
39:57quiet but rosa spoke first there's something i never told you if i don't say it now it wouldn't be
40:02fair to
40:02elena she'd be carrying blame that was never hers nathaniel you liked watching me shoot confidently
40:08on horseback you liked that i held my head high when things were unfair you liked the beauty mark
40:13below my eye that's all because i was copying her i admired her i wanted to be even a fraction
40:18of what she was it's not that she looked like me i looked like her nathaniel's ears were ringing
40:24he couldn't hear whatever rosa said after that the reason he'd fallen for rosa in the first place
40:29was seeing her on that horse raising a shotgun with her left hand he thought she was different
40:34he admired her brightness but she just told him she'd been imitating elena ashford which meant from
40:41the very start the person he fell for was elena it was just that rosa carrying elena's shadow appeared
40:48first nathaniel felt a phantom ache in his legs the kind from his past life out of habit he squeezed
40:55his
40:56thigh hard trying to ease the pain he kept pressing until his hand drifted to his chest oh it was
41:02his
41:03heart that hurt i'd been married before but this time everything felt different i didn't have to wake
41:10at dawn to cook didn't have to walk on eggshells every morning when i woke up my favorite foods were
41:16already on the table whatever julian did he asked my opinion first even pouring me a glass of water
41:22he'd ask if the temperature was right every time i turned around there he was watching me with those
41:29quiet smiling eyes when he caught me looking back julian blinked i wasn't made of stone over time my
41:37walls came down i heard it's getting cold this week maybe you should move back in sleep here with me
41:43two people warmer julian stared at me for a long time then suddenly pulled me into a tight hug
41:50okay whatever my wife says maybe julian was blocking nathaniel behind the scenes
41:57in the months after the wedding we lived in the same gated community but i never once ran into
42:02nathaniel i heard he'd gotten sick after my wedding nobody knew why but one day julian came home with a
42:09fake bruise on his face i asked he said he tripped that same day nathaniel left the sinclair house said
42:17he
42:17was going on a trip around the world alone completing the promise from the past life i didn't see him
42:23off
42:23didn't even send a polite message through someone this life we'd each chosen our own road no reason
42:29to look back from here on out may our paths never cross again
42:33you
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