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00:00:00I always felt like I never belonged, not in this pack and definitely not in the family I was placed
00:00:04with.
00:00:05I was orphaned at birth. My mother died giving birth to me, and my father soon after.
00:00:11Alpha Joe handed me off like an unwanted gift to Amma and Vargos.
00:00:15For a while, they treated me like their own.
00:00:18Until I was seven and Amma's belly began to swell with new life.
00:00:22Then the world shifted.
00:00:25The arms that once cradled me grew cold.
00:00:35Narayan! It's five in the damn morning! Get your useless self moving!
00:00:42I closed my eyes and breathed deep. Today was different.
00:00:45Tonight, under the moonlight, my dormant wolf gene will awaken and I'll finally become a full-fledged werewolf.
00:00:51Once I shift, I can leave Amma's house and start saving to finally get out of Kragnan.
00:00:55A small, secret smile tugged at my lips.
00:00:57I'd been waiting for this moment my whole life.
00:01:00I rose stiffly from my pile of clothes.
00:01:02There she was, leaning over the railing like a queen surveying her dirty peasant.
00:01:07Sorry.
00:01:09Sorry? You should be.
00:01:11Living off our kindness all these years.
00:01:14The least you could do is pick up more slack.
00:01:16It's the weekend.
00:01:17I swallowed the bitter rage clawing up my throat.
00:01:19More slack?
00:01:20What more could I possibly do that wasn't already dumped on my shoulders?
00:01:24I clenched my fists until my knuckles shook.
00:01:27Just a few more hours, I reminded myself.
00:01:30I woke Levian to get his laundry.
00:01:32He shoved two overflowing baskets into my arms and threw a duvet at the back of my head before slamming
00:01:37the door.
00:01:38Downstairs, Amma was sipping coffee and reading a fashion magazine.
00:01:40The washing machine's broken.
00:01:42Peter can fix it later.
00:01:43Take the laundry down to the river bend and wash it by hand.
00:01:46Oh, and grab your father's and my laundry too.
00:01:49I tripped and grabbed the counter, accidentally knocking a plate to the floor.
00:01:54Amma's palm collided with my face, knocking me backwards into the fridge.
00:01:59I saw stars and tears spilled from my eyes.
00:02:03You stupid little bitch!
00:02:05That was a vintage plate!
00:02:07Sorry doesn't fix your stupidity!
00:02:10Useless girl!
00:02:11You're nothing but a migraine!
00:02:12I stayed silent, letting the insults rain down until she stormed off.
00:02:18Then I heaved the heavy bags onto my back and stumbled toward the river bend,
00:02:23where there was less chance of anyone seeing me like this.
00:02:29By the time I made it back, the sun was retreating.
00:02:32I heard Alpha Joe's voice inside.
00:02:34I pushed open the door, and every head at the dining table turned toward me.
00:02:38Amma sweetly told a lie, saying that I went to wash clothes by the river because I complained
00:02:42the washing machine hadn't gotten them clean enough.
00:02:45Narin, I've been waiting for you.
00:02:46It's custom for the Alpha to bless you on your birthday,
00:02:49and pray that Irina's spirit sees you through your transformation from man to beast.
00:02:54I blinked.
00:02:55Stunned.
00:02:56I took a single spoonful of pasta at dinner.
00:02:58My parents hadn't.
00:02:59Suddenly, heat exploded under my skin.
00:03:02I doubled over, gasping.
00:03:03Get out.
00:03:04I took a deep breath through the pain and stumbled out the door.
00:03:07The storm howled, and rain pounded down.
00:03:10My bones snapped and elongated painfully slow, my spine twisting at odd angles.
00:03:15I laid there crying, powerless.
00:03:20After an eternity, the pain faded, and I staggered up panting.
00:03:25I looked down, and my white fur shimmered under the rain,
00:03:28with champagne-hued, burnished golden tips.
00:03:32I howled wildly to the red moon, brimming with happiness,
00:03:35and turned back toward the others.
00:03:37I wouldn't stare at you.
00:03:38They froze and stared as if I had two heads,
00:03:41then flinched when I stepped forward.
00:03:42In a puddle, I saw my huge reflection with a third eye on my forehead,
00:03:46black socket and golden iris,
00:03:48and my main eyes blazing red.
00:03:51Darkness swallowed me whole.
00:03:52Three years later, there were no windows or clocks,
00:03:54no way to tell day from night.
00:03:56Tobias's boots echoed through the rotten corridor.
00:03:58He tossed a tray beside me.
00:03:59Oh, you still ain't dead yet?
00:04:00You're one strong little bitch.
00:04:02It's been three years, can you believe it?
00:04:03This pit stinks worse than a rotting sewer.
00:04:05Last time I'm coming down here, mark my word.
00:04:08Three years, the words slithered into my mind like a poison dagger,
00:04:11but I felt nothing.
00:04:12Had it really been that long?
00:04:14I stared up at the cracked ceiling,
00:04:15tracing the spider web of fractures again and again.
00:04:18Every split had been memorized long ago.
00:04:20I had been rotting in this dungeon long enough
00:04:22for the ceiling to become more familiar than faces I once loved.
00:04:25They tried to get rid of me,
00:04:26but my cursed body healed relentlessly.
00:04:28They turned to silver,
00:04:30searing it into my flesh and leaving a map of scars.
00:04:32Joe was the worst.
00:04:33He peeled my skin back layer by layer,
00:04:36probing for the monster he swore lurked beneath.
00:04:38He would let me shriek until my lips cracked and my stomach twisted,
00:04:42then dangle a single drop of water in front of me.
00:04:45Shift.
00:04:46Show me what you really are.
00:04:47But I was too weak to summon the beast he so feared.
00:04:50I had screamed for death,
00:04:52begged for it in hoary sobs,
00:04:54but even death found me repulsive,
00:04:56leaving me trapped in this decaying shell.
00:04:59When I turned my head and saw the tray,
00:05:01a jolt struck my half-dead nerves.
00:05:03The cell door was in jaw,
00:05:05unlocked.
00:05:06Tobias.
00:05:07Lazy.
00:05:08Careless.
00:05:09Tobias hadn't locked it.
00:05:11A strange, foreign sensation stirred in my hollow chest.
00:05:14Hope.
00:05:15But I crushed it hard.
00:05:17Even if I escaped,
00:05:18where would I go in this state?
00:05:20Skin stretched over brittle bones,
00:05:22not even remembering my own face.
00:05:24I clenched my jaw.
00:05:26If I must die,
00:05:27then let it be under the sky,
00:05:28with the wind on my skin and the stars bearing witness.
00:05:31Not rotting away nameless in this tomb.
00:05:35I forced my skeletal frame to move and dragged myself across the threshold.
00:05:39I didn't remember how I stumbled through the night,
00:05:41only the scent,
00:05:42honeysuckle and sun-warmed cedar,
00:05:44cutting through the rot like a blade.
00:05:46Then a pair of warm arms caught my crumbling body.
00:05:49When my eyes fluttered open again,
00:05:51there was no cracked ceiling.
00:05:53Above me were intricate carvings kissed with gold and silver,
00:05:56a chandelier glowing softly.
00:05:58The bed beneath me was impossibly soft,
00:06:00silk curtains swaying at its corners.
00:06:02Was I dead?
00:06:03Was this heaven or hell dressed in beautiful lies?
00:06:06I tried to move but my limbs trembled violently.
00:06:08My hands were clean and pale,
00:06:10nearly translucent.
00:06:11I was dressed in a large hoodie.
00:06:13The grime I'd worn like a second skin was gone.
00:06:15You're awake.
00:06:17I flinched and snapped my gaze toward the voice.
00:06:20He was the most beautiful man I'd ever seen.
00:06:23He stood at the foot of the bed,
00:06:25arms crossed over a broad chest,
00:06:27warm brown eyes framed by thick, dark lashes.
00:06:30How are you feeling?
00:06:32That voice was like thunder wrapped in silk.
00:06:35I wanted to speak,
00:06:36but only a weak gasp escaped.
00:06:38When he reached out a hand,
00:06:41I threw my arms up to shield my face,
00:06:43bracing for the blow I knew would come.
00:06:46I don't want to hurt you.
00:06:51I would never hurt you, Imsirelli.
00:06:55I peeked through my arms.
00:06:57He had lowered his hand and wore a sad smile.
00:07:00He introduced himself as Sargas,
00:07:03the ruthless, untouchable Lycan king.
00:07:07He said I was in the palace of Karagnyr,
00:07:10that he had found me on snow wolf territory.
00:07:13This had to be a hallucination.
00:07:15How could someone as broken as I am be in the palace?
00:07:18In the king's bed.
00:07:20I tried to pinch myself awake,
00:07:22but there was no flesh to grip.
00:07:24So I scooted toward the edge,
00:07:27intending to fall and wake up.
00:07:28The next second,
00:07:29I crashed into a solid chest.
00:07:32His heartbeat thudded against my ear.
00:07:34I looked up into those warm eyes
00:07:36that could melt the fiercest ice.
00:07:38But warmth was always a lie.
00:07:40I pushed weakly,
00:07:41but he simply laid me back on the bed.
00:07:44Then he pulled out a phone
00:07:45and issued a steady command.
00:07:49Royal physician.
00:07:50My room.
00:07:52He was summoning an entire medical team.
00:07:55This is all my fault.
00:07:57I'm sorry I didn't find you soon.
00:07:59He dropped his head onto my lap,
00:08:02his broad shoulders trembling slightly.
00:08:04I froze.
00:08:06Why would a king grieve over me?
00:08:08A knock sounded,
00:08:10and a group in teal scrubs filed in,
00:08:13bowing in unison.
00:08:14That was what they called him.
00:08:16Supreme Alpha.
00:08:17And I sat there,
00:08:19trembling,
00:08:20utterly bewildered.
00:08:21What the actual fuck was happening?
00:08:23They wanted to examine me.
00:08:24I curled into a ball,
00:08:26pressing my palms over my ears,
00:08:28rocking back and forth.
00:08:29Don't touch me.
00:08:30Please, no.
00:08:31The man called Sarja sat on the edge of the bed,
00:08:33his voice low.
00:08:34I promise you, M'serely,
00:08:36nobody here is going to hurt you.
00:08:38They won't touch you in any way
00:08:40you're uncomfortable with.
00:08:41I swear on my title
00:08:43and my life.
00:08:45I looked at him.
00:08:46There was a burning sincerity
00:08:48in those eyes.
00:08:52Slowly,
00:08:52my hands slid down from my ears.
00:08:56I nodded.
00:08:58The physician Maravec approached cautiously,
00:09:00like handling a frightened fawn.
00:09:02He measured my vitals,
00:09:04my height and weight,
00:09:05his brown deepening.
00:09:06When he gestured for me to open my mouth,
00:09:09a foul stretch filled the room,
00:09:10and I saw Sargas' knuckles turn white.
00:09:13They asked questions,
00:09:14and I answered with nods,
00:09:16shakes,
00:09:16or fingers.
00:09:17Three.
00:09:18Three years since I last spoke.
00:09:21Twenty-one.
00:09:22I was twenty-one.
00:09:24Finally,
00:09:24they handed me a notepad and pen
00:09:26to write my name.
00:09:27My hand trembled so badly
00:09:28the letters came out crooked.
00:09:31Nino?
00:09:32Or maybe Maka?
00:09:34The physician guessed twice
00:09:35and was wrong both times.
00:09:38Sargas impatiently snatched the note
00:09:40and squinted at it.
00:09:41Noreen.
00:09:43I nodded.
00:09:46Noreen.
00:09:48He pronounced that name
00:09:49like a sacred vow.
00:09:52Everyone left,
00:09:53and the door clicked shut behind them.
00:09:55Silence wrapped around me again.
00:09:57My oldest best friend.
00:09:58I looked around the massive room.
00:10:01High vaulted ceilings.
00:10:02Polished stone walls.
00:10:03A bed big enough for five.
00:10:05It was too surreal.
00:10:06I was in the Lycan king's palace.
00:10:09In his bed.
00:10:10Under his care.
00:10:11Why?
00:10:12What did he want?
00:10:13No one ever gave without wanting something in return.
00:10:16Especially not for someone like me.
00:10:19A knock came,
00:10:20and a dark-haired woman entered,
00:10:21fox-like eyes smiling.
00:10:23She introduced herself as Hazmik,
00:10:24my lady in waiting.
00:10:26She brought an iPad and a wireless bell.
00:10:28Would you like to stay resting in bed?
00:10:29Or would you love to watch the sun?
00:10:32It's beautiful from the balcony.
00:10:33The sun.
00:10:34That word struck me like a jolt to the chest.
00:10:37I pointed weakly toward the window.
00:10:40She smiled and helped me up,
00:10:42letting me lean on her
00:10:43as we shuffled step by step
00:10:44towards the large glass doors.
00:10:46The door slid open,
00:10:47and sunlight flood in.
00:10:49The first ray hit my face.
00:10:51I froze.
00:10:53The warmth was so foreigner it almost hurt.
00:10:55I closed my eyes and breathed it in,
00:10:58letting it soak into my bones.
00:11:00I had forgotten.
00:11:01I had forgotten how the sun felt.
00:11:04Hazmik helped me sink into a giant beanbag
00:11:06that swallowed me whole.
00:11:07The sky was a tender blue,
00:11:10clouds drifting slowly.
00:11:11A breeze kissed my matted hair.
00:11:13I don't know how long I sat there.
00:11:15Maybe I fell asleep.
00:11:16When I opened my eyes again,
00:11:18the sky was painted amber and rose gold,
00:11:20a wool blanket wrapped around me.
00:11:23Then I met those warm brown eyes.
00:11:25Sarge standing by the railing,
00:11:27silently watching me.
00:11:28You seemed so comfortable sleeping.
00:11:30I didn't have the heart to disturb you.
00:11:32It's getting windy.
00:11:34I should get you inside
00:11:35so you don't catch a cold.
00:11:38Before I could react,
00:11:40I was weightless in his arms.
00:11:42My face pressed against his chest,
00:11:45his steady heartbeat thudding in my ear.
00:11:48I froze,
00:11:50but he just smiled,
00:11:52as if carrying women
00:11:53was part of his daily routine.
00:11:59He laid me back on the bed,
00:12:01tucked the duvet around me,
00:12:02and then turned for the door,
00:12:06leaving my heart hammering like a drum.
00:12:09The door clicked shut behind him.
00:12:12I curled up alone in that too soft bed,
00:12:15my heart still pounding.
00:12:16When he carried me back from the balcony,
00:12:18his arms had been steady as stone,
00:12:20as if I weighed nothing.
00:12:21I burrowed deeper into his hoodie.
00:12:24That scent,
00:12:25cedar and honeysuckle,
00:12:27had soaked into the fabric.
00:12:28I hated to admit it reminded me
00:12:30of something distant called safety.
00:12:33Outside,
00:12:34moonlight silvered the gardens.
00:12:36I stared at it,
00:12:37asking myself over and over,
00:12:39who was I
00:12:41to be held in a king's hands?
00:12:43The answer came as cold as moonlight.
00:12:46I was not worthy.
00:12:47The physician Maravec's words
00:12:49echoed in my head.
00:12:50Severe malnutrition,
00:12:52dehydration,
00:12:53post-traumatic stress.
00:12:54My teeth had rotted from neglect.
00:12:56If I were human,
00:12:57he had said,
00:12:58I would already be dead.
00:13:00It was the cursed wolf blood
00:13:01that had kept me alive.
00:13:03The blood that made me a monster.
00:13:06I touched the crescent
00:13:07and spiral mark on my forehead.
00:13:09It always throbbed faintly.
00:13:10I closed my eyes,
00:13:12trying to piece together
00:13:13what that man,
00:13:14Sargis,
00:13:14could possibly see in me.
00:13:16A mute ghost.
00:13:17A skeletal wreck.
00:13:19A three-eyed abomination.
00:13:21Sooner or later,
00:13:22he would see the truth
00:13:23and throw me back into the abyss.
00:13:25Thirty sunrises and sunsets passed.
00:13:27I was trapped in this gilded dream,
00:13:29receiving IV drips,
00:13:30dental repairs,
00:13:31nutritional supplements day after day.
00:13:33Flesh slowly returned to my frame,
00:13:34and my skin grew less translucent.
00:13:36Hazmack became my shadow.
00:13:37She never pushed,
00:13:38never overstepped,
00:13:39simply offering a hand when needed.
00:13:40She reminded me of something
00:13:41I had never possessed,
00:13:42a sister.
00:13:43And Sargis slept on the sofa,
00:13:44every single day.
00:13:45Whenever I woke,
00:13:47he was either reading
00:13:47or watching me like a puzzle
00:13:49he couldn't solve.
00:13:50His gaze was too intense
00:13:51and I could never meet it.
00:13:52I woke earlier than usual today.
00:13:54Dawn had not yet broken
00:13:55and the room was empty.
00:13:55I didn't want to wait for Hazmack
00:13:56to help me with everything
00:13:57like a parasite.
00:13:58I pulled the IV needle out,
00:13:59wincing at the sting,
00:14:00but I didn't stop.
00:14:01The bathroom was gilded magnificence.
00:14:03The mirror showed a face still pale,
00:14:04but no longer hollow-eyed.
00:14:06I stared at the brand on my forehead,
00:14:07trying to recall when it appeared,
00:14:09but memory offered only black holes.
00:14:10I picked up scissors
00:14:11and began cutting away the matted knots.
00:14:13Platinum strands fell around my feet,
00:14:15snip after snip,
00:14:16until my head felt as light
00:14:17as if three years of weight
00:14:18had been lifted.
00:14:19Hot water poured from the shower head,
00:14:20steam billowing.
00:14:21I closed my eyes
00:14:22and let the stream wash over
00:14:23of every inch of skin.
00:14:23It was the first time
00:14:24I truly bathed myself.
00:14:25The scent of soap
00:14:26drowned out the memory of rot.
00:14:27I touched every inch of skin
00:14:28as if getting to know my body
00:14:29for the first time.
00:14:30After the shower,
00:14:30wrapped in a blue robe,
00:14:31I found myself standing
00:14:32before the mirror again.
00:14:34I took a deep breath
00:14:34and let the robe fall.
00:14:36Then I saw them scars,
00:14:37covering my body
00:14:38like dried up riverbeds.
00:14:39The most horrifying one
00:14:40snaked from my lower abdomen
00:14:41to just beneath my left breast.
00:14:42The skin was tight and shiny,
00:14:44as if it still had a pulsacy.
00:14:45Joe,
00:14:45he had dragged
00:14:46a silver-coated blade
00:14:47up my stomach,
00:14:48slow as if savoring a delicacy.
00:14:50The sizzle of silver on flesh,
00:14:52the iron tang of blood,
00:14:54his humming,
00:14:54my screams.
00:14:56The door burst open.
00:14:57Sargus rushed in,
00:14:58then froze.
00:14:59His gaze landed on me
00:15:00for only a heartbeat
00:15:00before jerking away
00:15:01as if scolded,
00:15:02the back of his neck
00:15:03flushing red.
00:15:05I saw her body,
00:15:06which made me uncontrollably
00:15:07think of some
00:15:08blush-endearing images.
00:15:10I'm sorry.
00:15:11I didn't think
00:15:12before barging in.
00:15:13Your heartbeat,
00:15:14I thought shit.
00:15:15I'm so sorry.
00:15:16Are you okay?
00:15:17Why are you crying?
00:15:17Only then did I realize
00:15:18I was curled naked
00:15:19on the floor,
00:15:20tears streaming down my face.
00:15:22I scrambled to pull
00:15:23the robe around me,
00:15:24heart-hammering.
00:15:25He kept his back to me,
00:15:26shoulders rigid.
00:15:27Put some clothes on,
00:15:28I'll be outside.
00:15:29He practically fled.
00:15:35I sat there for a moment,
00:15:36then pulled on another
00:15:37of his white shirt
00:15:38and burrowed under the covers.
00:15:39He stood by the window
00:15:40for a long time
00:15:41before slowly returning.
00:15:42I lay in bed
00:15:43with my back to him.
00:15:44His voice came from behind
00:15:45low and careful
00:15:46like taming a deer
00:15:46ready to bolt.
00:15:47You've been cooped up
00:15:48in here for a month.
00:15:48If you want,
00:15:49we can stroll through
00:15:50the palace gardens.
00:15:51The lilies just bloomed.
00:15:52Maravik says you can
00:15:52start on solid foods.
00:15:53I didn't respond.
00:15:54He held out the tablet
00:15:55and asked if there was
00:15:56anything I craved.
00:15:57I stared at the flowing screen
00:15:59as if it were an alien artifact.
00:16:00But eventually,
00:16:01I took it.
00:16:02He showed me how it worked,
00:16:04his fingers careful
00:16:04never to touch mine.
00:16:06I typed,
00:16:06then turned the screen
00:16:07toward him.
00:16:08What do you mean?
00:16:08What do I want?
00:16:09I snatched it back,
00:16:10typed furiously,
00:16:11and flipped it again.
00:16:12I need answers.
00:16:14Why was I brought here?
00:16:15Why am I in your bed?
00:16:16Why all this excessive care?
00:16:17Why waste resources
00:16:18on someone you don't even know?
00:16:20He fell silent.
00:16:21The air grew heavy as red.
00:16:22That's because
00:16:23you're my mate,
00:16:24Cyreli.
00:16:26Mate?
00:16:26Me?
00:16:27His?
00:16:27The eternally bound,
00:16:28soul-deep,
00:16:29lichen mate
00:16:29cursed by Irina?
00:16:31Absurd.
00:16:32I was a three-eyed monster.
00:16:34He couldn't be serious.
00:16:35There had to be a mistake.
00:16:37A defective thing
00:16:38cast aside by everyone.
00:16:39He couldn't be serious.
00:16:40This had to be
00:16:41another cruel trap.
00:16:42I couldn't believe him.
00:16:43The moment he saw
00:16:44my true form,
00:16:45he would revile me
00:16:46like everyone else.
00:16:47I had to leave.
00:16:48Before he discovered the truth,
00:16:49before those gentle looks
00:16:50turned to disgust,
00:16:51I had to escape.
00:16:52But I was too weak right now.
00:16:53I needed time
00:16:53to regain my strength,
00:16:54to earn his trust,
00:16:55to find an opening.
00:16:56The garden.
00:16:57He mentioned the garden.
00:16:58There had to be a way out from there.
00:16:59I forced my breathing to steady,
00:17:00picked up the tablet,
00:17:01and typed my reply
00:17:02one letter at a time.
00:17:03Banana.
00:17:04He stared for a full three seconds,
00:17:06then his handsome face
00:17:07split into a smile
00:17:08I had never seen.
00:17:09Pure,
00:17:10bright,
00:17:11utterly relieved.
00:17:12The freshest bananas
00:17:13should be immediately
00:17:14brought to my quarters.
00:17:15Soon,
00:17:15Hazmeek rushed in
00:17:16with an armload of bananas,
00:17:18her eyes glistening.
00:17:19She peeled one
00:17:20and offered it to me
00:17:21with a joy
00:17:22as if I had just asked
00:17:23for the crown itself.
00:17:24I took the first bite.
00:17:25The sweetness exploded
00:17:27on my tongue,
00:17:28foreign and overwhelming.
00:17:29I couldn't remember
00:17:30bananas ever tasting this good.
00:17:32One after another,
00:17:33I couldn't stop.
00:17:35I heard his low chuckle.
00:17:37You're going to turn
00:17:38into a banana at this rate.
00:17:39I paused,
00:17:41looked up at him,
00:17:42and gave him the faintest,
00:17:43most unexpected eye roll.
00:17:45His laughter grew louder.
00:17:47In that moment,
00:17:49something cold in my chest
00:17:51seemed to crack.
00:17:54I'm so rarely meant
00:17:55my beloved
00:17:55in old Kragnook.
00:17:57He said it
00:17:58with such tenderness
00:17:59that I had to look away.
00:18:01I didn't deserve
00:18:01to be looked at like that.
00:18:03After the bananas were gone,
00:18:04he sat quietly on the sofa
00:18:05and told me
00:18:06about Irina's curse.
00:18:07How lichens were punished
00:18:08for their arrogance,
00:18:10bound eternally
00:18:10to one person,
00:18:11heart and soul
00:18:12intertwined until death.
00:18:13I don't care about the curse.
00:18:14All I know
00:18:15is that when I found you,
00:18:16here,
00:18:17he pointed to his chest.
00:18:19The place that had been
00:18:20empty for 23 years
00:18:21suddenly felt full.
00:18:23I clutched the sheets.
00:18:26His words were honeyed,
00:18:28but I had tasted
00:18:29too much poison
00:18:30wrapped in honey.
00:18:32I picked up the tablet
00:18:33and typed with trembling fingers.
00:18:36I don't want to be your mate.
00:18:38His smile didn't disappear.
00:18:39It just softened
00:18:40into something sad,
00:18:42like a flame
00:18:42dampened by rain.
00:18:43I know,
00:18:44and I won't force anything
00:18:45on you, Noreen.
00:18:46Ever.
00:18:47But I also won't lie to you.
00:18:48You're not just anyone to me.
00:18:50You're the only one
00:18:50that's ever silenced
00:18:51the monster inside me.
00:18:57He left after those words,
00:18:59leaving me alone
00:18:59with the silence.
00:19:00I looked toward the balcony.
00:19:02The sky was vast
00:19:03and I was in a cage.
00:19:05No,
00:19:06I would be no one's
00:19:07prisoner anymore.
00:19:08I would grow strong,
00:19:09exact my revenge,
00:19:11and then be truly free.
00:19:12I walked to the balcony,
00:19:14slid the door open,
00:19:15and cold wind
00:19:16hit my face.
00:19:18I stared at the abyss
00:19:19beyond the railing.
00:19:20One step,
00:19:21and all the pain
00:19:22would end.
00:19:23I climbed onto the railing
00:19:24and spread my arms.
00:19:27Noreen!
00:19:28Please don't do that!
00:19:29I whipped my head around,
00:19:31my foot slipped,
00:19:32then the world flipped,
00:19:33and I fell into the void.
00:19:34A hand clamped around my wrist.
00:19:36I dangled in midair,
00:19:37looking up to see Sargas
00:19:38half over the railing,
00:19:39one hand gripping the edge,
00:19:40the other holding me
00:19:41with desperate strength.
00:19:42His face was contorted
00:19:43with strain,
00:19:43veins bulging,
00:19:44but what burned in his eyes
00:19:45was not anger.
00:19:46It was pure,
00:19:46unadultated terror.
00:19:47Hold on, Noreen!
00:19:48Just hold on!
00:19:50With a guttural roar,
00:19:51he hauled us both back
00:19:52over the railing,
00:19:52inched by agonizing inch.
00:19:53We tumbled onto the cold tiles.
00:19:56I sprawled across his chest,
00:19:58his heart hummering wildly
00:19:59against my ear.
00:20:00He sat up,
00:20:01gripping my shoulders,
00:20:02his voice raw and shaking.
00:20:03Are you okay?
00:20:04I know I'll never fully understand
00:20:05what you've been through,
00:20:05but taking your life
00:20:06is not an option.
00:20:07Do you hear me?
00:20:08If something is too heavy for you,
00:20:09let me carry it.
00:20:10I'll burn this entire world
00:20:11to ashes for you.
00:20:12Just say the word.
00:20:13You have no idea
00:20:14the power you hold over me,
00:20:15Imsirelli.
00:20:16Please,
00:20:17don't ever try to do that again.
00:20:18I froze.
00:20:20He was kneeling before me,
00:20:21the supreme Lycan king,
00:20:23his voice laced
00:20:24with raw pleading.
00:20:25Not anger,
00:20:26not reproach,
00:20:27fear.
00:20:28Fear of losing me.
00:20:30I looked down
00:20:31and saw the wound
00:20:32from the IV
00:20:32still bleeding on my hand.
00:20:35He followed my gaze
00:20:37and then gently lifted my hand.
00:20:39Let me help you clean this.
00:20:41He fetched the first aid kit
00:20:42and knelt on one knee
00:20:44at my feet.
00:20:44His touch was exquisitely careful,
00:20:47as if I were the most
00:20:48fragile porcelain on earth.
00:20:49I watched his profile,
00:20:51which seemed almost reverent,
00:20:58something hard inside my chest
00:21:00quietly gave way.
00:21:01He applied a bandage,
00:21:02then stood and fetched a steam mop.
00:21:04My eyes widened
00:21:05as the Lycan king
00:21:05rolled up his sleeves
00:21:06and began personally
00:21:07cleaning the blood
00:21:07off the floor.
00:21:08His forearms flexed
00:21:09with each movement,
00:21:10veins tracing intricate paths.
00:21:11I tore my gaze away,
00:21:12cheeks burning.
00:21:13Damn it,
00:21:13what was I thinking?
00:21:14This man had just saved my life
00:21:15and I was oogling his arms?
00:21:17I buried myself
00:21:18under the covers
00:21:19and feigned sleep.
00:21:20The hum of the steam mop
00:21:22was an odd lullaby.
00:21:24After a while,
00:21:25I heard him set it down
00:21:27and quietly settle back
00:21:28onto the sofa.
00:21:30I didn't sleep that night.
00:21:32Not from fear,
00:21:33but from a strange,
00:21:34unnameable flutter.
00:21:35He said I had power over him.
00:21:38But what power could a broken,
00:21:39mute wreck like me possibly hold?
00:21:43Two months passed.
00:21:44My body recovered rapidly.
00:21:46I could keep down
00:21:47most solid foods
00:21:48and had even gained
00:21:49a little weight in my cheeks.
00:21:50But my wolf remained dormant.
00:21:52Maravec said it would take
00:21:54a few more months.
00:21:55I didn't plan to wait that long.
00:21:56I had to leave.
00:21:57Sargish's tenderness
00:21:58was a net drawing tighter each day
00:22:00and I feared drowning in it.
00:22:01I couldn't.
00:22:02I had a revenge to fulfill.
00:22:03Today,
00:22:04the opportunity came.
00:22:06I picked up the pablet
00:22:07and typed,
00:22:08I remember you once offered
00:22:09to take me to the garden.
00:22:10Does that offer still stand?
00:22:12He read the screen
00:22:13and his lips curved slowly
00:22:15into a smile
00:22:16that could melt ice.
00:22:17Of course it does.
00:22:20Sargish's smile bloomed
00:22:21like the first breath of spring.
00:22:24He led me through
00:22:25the palace corridors
00:22:26and I stepped into
00:22:28the moving iron box
00:22:29called an elevator
00:22:30for the first time.
00:22:31When the floor trembled,
00:22:33fear gripped my throat.
00:22:34I threw myself into his arms,
00:22:36clinging to his waist.
00:22:38His chest rumbled.
00:22:39He was laughing.
00:22:40This way,
00:22:41Lady Koala.
00:22:43I followed him
00:22:44past towering columnans.
00:22:45Two obsidian-carved
00:22:46lichen thrones
00:22:47loomed at the far end.
00:22:48The ceiling stole my breath
00:22:50and guards stood like statues.
00:22:52For the first time,
00:22:53I understood with absolute clarity
00:22:55he was a king.
00:22:57This is the palace ballroom.
00:22:58We host royal events,
00:23:00meetings, celebrations,
00:23:01and official matters here.
00:23:02I stared at the thrones,
00:23:04my skin pricking.
00:23:05He could snap my neck
00:23:06with a flick of his wrist.
00:23:07Yet I slept in his bed,
00:23:08wore his clothes,
00:23:09ate his candy.
00:23:10The thought of escape
00:23:11lodged in my mind
00:23:12like a thorn.
00:23:12Guards pushed open
00:23:13a heavy oak and iron door,
00:23:14and sunlight spilled in
00:23:16like it had been waiting
00:23:17for centuries.
00:23:17I saw a black luxury car
00:23:19parked in the courtyard.
00:23:21Sargish opened the door
00:23:22for me himself.
00:23:25I got in,
00:23:26and he slid in beside me.
00:23:29Here.
00:23:30You can munch on it
00:23:31while we make our way there.
00:23:32I took it,
00:23:33tore it open,
00:23:34and shoved a handful
00:23:36into my mouth.
00:23:37The sweetness melted
00:23:38on my tongue.
00:23:40He kept watching me.
00:23:41When I looked up,
00:23:42he quickly averted his eyes
00:23:44and pretended to study
00:23:45the scenery.
00:23:46The garden was called
00:23:47Velaryad,
00:23:48an arched stone gate
00:23:49twilled with vines,
00:23:50the scent thick
00:23:51as a liquid dream.
00:23:52I stepped in
00:23:53and was swallowed by blooms,
00:23:54birds of paradise,
00:23:55bleeding hearts,
00:23:56ghost orchids,
00:23:57and a bush of silver roses.
00:23:58They're called
00:23:59moonlit etel roses.
00:24:00They grow nowhere else
00:24:01in the world.
00:24:02They're used in every
00:24:02major royal event.
00:24:04Mating ceremonies,
00:24:05coronations,
00:24:06presentations of heirs,
00:24:08even funeral rites.
00:24:09I crouched before the roses,
00:24:11afraid to touch them.
00:24:12The petals were true silver,
00:24:14like melted starlight
00:24:15trapped in delicate
00:24:16folds.
00:24:17I didn't know how long
00:24:18I crouched there
00:24:18until my legs cramped.
00:24:19When I stood,
00:24:20I saw Sargas sitting
00:24:21cross-segged on a hanging chair,
00:24:22hand his head,
00:24:23grinning without guard.
00:24:24This has always been
00:24:24my favorite place to escape,
00:24:26even when I was a kid.
00:24:27Whenever I had a fight
00:24:28with my parents
00:24:28or just needed to disappear,
00:24:29I came here.
00:24:30I listened,
00:24:30and the corner of my lips
00:24:31twicked upward
00:24:31against my will.
00:24:32I wiped it away immediately.
00:24:33I had no business
00:24:34smiling at him.
00:24:37You're so beautiful.
00:24:38Has anyone ever told you that?
00:24:40I froze.
00:24:41I froze.
00:24:42No one,
00:24:42never.
00:24:43Something warm and dangerous
00:24:44swelled in my chest.
00:24:45I had to crush it.
00:24:47I shot to my feet,
00:24:48desperate to flee this tender trap.
00:24:50My heel caught the fountain's edge,
00:24:52and I tilted backward.
00:24:54Arms banded around my waist
00:24:56and pulled me
00:24:56against a solid chest.
00:24:58I looked up in panic,
00:25:00just as his face angled down.
00:25:03Our lips touched.
00:25:05Then memory surged
00:25:06like black tide.
00:25:07Joe's hands.
00:25:08Joe's laughter.
00:25:09Joe's weight pinning me down.
00:25:10I screamed and shoved him away,
00:25:12collapsing to the ground,
00:25:13scrubbing frantically at my lips.
00:25:15I heard myself begging
00:25:17hoarskily,
00:25:17but the name I cried
00:25:19was Joe's.
00:25:20I finally came to
00:25:21the first thing I registered
00:25:22was pain.
00:25:23A dull, burning throb
00:25:24echoed in my bones
00:25:25as if my entire body
00:25:27remembered every bruise.
00:25:28The second thing I noticed
00:25:29was a warm, solid arm
00:25:31draped over my waist,
00:25:32and another tucked beneath my head,
00:25:34gently pinning both my ribs.
00:25:35The third thing was the heat.
00:25:37A comforting, enveloping warmth
00:25:39that seemed to seep
00:25:39into my skin.
00:25:41How good he smelled,
00:25:42and how perfectly
00:25:43his body molded around mine.
00:25:45And the last thing
00:25:45that made me freeze
00:25:46was a poke,
00:25:47right on my lap.
00:25:49No!
00:25:49No, no, no!
00:25:50I twisted, kicked,
00:25:52and squirmed
00:25:52until I managed to slide out
00:25:53from under him
00:25:54and tumble off the bed.
00:25:55I scrambled backward
00:25:56like a startled deer
00:25:57until my back
00:25:58hit the nightstand.
00:26:00You're finally awake.
00:26:03Why the fuck
00:26:04were you in bed with me?
00:26:05You were having a nightmare,
00:26:06thrashing and clawing
00:26:07at yourself.
00:26:08I tried to wake you up,
00:26:09but you wouldn't stop.
00:26:10So I held you
00:26:11all night.
00:26:12I stared at him.
00:26:13That made sense.
00:26:14But why wasn't I scared?
00:26:15It was like my body
00:26:16knew this alpha
00:26:17wouldn't hurt me,
00:26:18but my brain
00:26:19was struggling to keep up.
00:26:20Are you reading my mind?
00:26:22You're not insane.
00:26:23You were simply
00:26:23thinking out loud.
00:26:24A scream tore
00:26:25from my throat again.
00:26:26And then I heard it.
00:26:27My voice.
00:26:29Trembling,
00:26:29I pressed a hand
00:26:30to my throat,
00:26:31disbelieving.
00:26:32A soft gasp escaped me.
00:26:34Tears welled in my eyes.
00:26:37So this...
00:26:38This is how I sound?
00:26:40I didn't even remember anymore.
00:26:44The memories came crashing into me.
00:26:46The palace,
00:26:47the garden,
00:26:47the kiss,
00:26:48and Joe.
00:26:49My chest caved in.
00:26:51I closed my eyes
00:26:52and inhaled deeply,
00:26:53but the weight of that
00:26:54memory pulled me under.
00:26:56The kiss reminded me of Joe.
00:26:58I couldn't breathe.
00:27:00I dropped my gaze to my hands.
00:27:01There was torn skin
00:27:02beneath my nails.
00:27:04He wasn't lying.
00:27:05Sargas had protected me
00:27:06from myself.
00:27:07Again.
00:27:09Good morning.
00:27:12Do you want to use
00:27:13the bathroom first
00:27:13or should I?
00:27:14I shuffled toward
00:27:15the walk-in closet
00:27:16and grabbed one of his
00:27:17black shirts
00:27:18and a pair of shorts.
00:27:19Wearing his clothes
00:27:20felt normal now.
00:27:21I stepped back
00:27:22into the room.
00:27:22He was sitting
00:27:23at the edge of the bed,
00:27:24phone in hand.
00:27:25Inside the bathroom,
00:27:26I caught my reflection,
00:27:28angry red lines
00:27:28across my arms
00:27:29and collarbone.
00:27:30I had done that
00:27:31to myself.
00:27:32I realized
00:27:33I was growing comfortable
00:27:34here with him.
00:27:35That scared me
00:27:36more than anything.
00:27:37I wasn't staying forever.
00:27:39I'd kill Joe.
00:27:40I stepped out of the bathroom.
00:27:42I stepped out of the bathroom,
00:27:42drawn by the scent of heaven.
00:27:44Sargas stood behind
00:27:45the island counter,
00:27:46fussing with a skillet,
00:27:48plating eggs,
00:27:49sausages,
00:27:50bacon,
00:27:50pancakes.
00:27:51He could cook?
00:27:54Come take your seat.
00:27:55I obeyed immediately.
00:27:56He placed a full plate
00:27:58in front of me.
00:27:59I picked up the fork
00:28:00and deg in.
00:28:01A moan slipped out
00:28:02without warning.
00:28:03How is it?
00:28:04I haven't cooked in a while,
00:28:05so I might be a little rusty.
00:28:07I flashed him a thumbs up.
00:28:08He grinned
00:28:09and served himself a plate.
00:28:10We ate in silence.
00:28:12Once the meal was done,
00:28:13I rose to grab the dishes.
00:28:15He intercepted me.
00:28:16I can do it.
00:28:18I absolutely do not
00:28:20doubt your capability,
00:28:21but allow me to do
00:28:22these little things.
00:28:23You don't ever have
00:28:24to lift a finger.
00:28:25I looked away quickly.
00:28:27There was something disarming
00:28:28about the way he spoke.
00:28:29He was gentle,
00:28:30and I didn't know
00:28:31how to handle gentle.
00:28:33I wandered back
00:28:34to the living space
00:28:35and collapsed onto the sofa.
00:28:37Minutes later,
00:28:38he approached.
00:28:39Here.
00:28:40He held out a bowl
00:28:41filled with brightly colored candies
00:28:43and sour gummies.
00:28:44I took it with both hands.
00:28:46You don't ever have to thank me
00:28:47for things like this.
00:28:48It's my pleasure.
00:28:50Then he turned
00:28:51and walked away.
00:28:54I stared after him
00:28:58and didn't know
00:28:59what to think about him anymore.
00:29:16Time had passed.
00:29:17Two and a half months
00:29:18since everything changed.
00:29:20Since I screamed
00:29:21and found my voice.
00:29:22Sargas and I were
00:29:23in a much better place now.
00:29:24Not perfect,
00:29:25but closer.
00:29:26I spoke with him freely
00:29:28when I wanted to,
00:29:29quietly when I didn't.
00:29:30He never pushed.
00:29:31I'd started leaving
00:29:32the palace too.
00:29:33With Hazmik,
00:29:34she became something
00:29:35close to a friend.
00:29:36She taught me games,
00:29:38painted my nails,
00:29:39let me braid her hair.
00:29:40What kind of man
00:29:42do you like?
00:29:43I had no answer.
00:29:44But she told me
00:29:44she and Lupercus were mated.
00:29:46I couldn't believe it.
00:29:47That tall,
00:29:47brooding wall of muscle?
00:29:49Him?
00:29:49Hazmik burst into laughter,
00:29:50but it was true.
00:29:52Physically,
00:29:52I was changing too.
00:29:53I'd gained weight,
00:29:54healthy weight.
00:29:55My hips had begun to round,
00:29:56my cheeks filled out,
00:29:57my hair grew thicker
00:29:58and longer,
00:29:59but I hadn't stopped
00:30:00searching for a way out.
00:30:01Notebooks hidden
00:30:02behind the wardrobe
00:30:02were filled with sketches
00:30:03of palace maps,
00:30:04blind spots in guard rotations,
00:30:06tunnel theories,
00:30:07but I still hadn't
00:30:08found a way out.
00:30:09I'm tired of seeing you
00:30:10in his clothes.
00:30:11You're getting thicker now
00:30:11and your boobs are starting
00:30:12to fill out,
00:30:13but you're still dressing
00:30:13like a malnourished librarian.
00:30:14You need your own clothes.
00:30:15Dresses, shoes, undies,
00:30:17sexy ones.
00:30:18The door swung open
00:30:19and in walked Sargas.
00:30:22Good.
00:30:23You're here.
00:30:24Your mate is filling out.
00:30:25It's a crime she doesn't
00:30:26have decent underwear.
00:30:27I'm taking her shopping.
00:30:28You're what?
00:30:29She needs a wardrobe overhaul.
00:30:31Your card.
00:30:32Now.
00:30:32Sargas looked between us.
00:30:34Then he groaned.
00:30:36For the goddess' sake,
00:30:38fine.
00:30:39He shoved his black card
00:30:41into her hand.
00:30:42Hosnique kissed his cheek.
00:30:44Good boy.
00:30:45The only person
00:30:46you're allowed to splurge on
00:30:47is Noreen,
00:30:48not yourself.
00:30:50Crystal clear, my king.
00:30:51She looped her arm
00:30:51through mine,
00:30:52practically dragging me
00:30:53toward the door
00:30:53while I stumbled along,
00:30:54half horrified,
00:30:55half terrified.
00:30:56If she comes back
00:30:57with those hideous shades
00:30:58of yours,
00:30:58I'll personally exile you,
00:31:00Hosnique.
00:31:00Hosnique.
00:31:01And I went shopping.
00:31:02She drove.
00:31:02I sat in the passenger seat.
00:31:04The gates creaked shut
00:31:05behind us.
00:31:05Am I sure I should be doing this?
00:31:06Going out like this?
00:31:08Babe,
00:31:08I'm more than sure.
00:31:10And besides,
00:31:11I waited months for this.
00:31:12Don't rob me
00:31:13of my girl's day fantasy.
00:31:14I gave her a small smile.
00:31:18But my insides
00:31:19were knotted with anxiety.
00:31:22The road wound
00:31:23through towering sycamars
00:31:24and golden fields.
00:31:26Thirty minutes later,
00:31:27we reached the main gate.
00:31:28It opened.
00:31:30This was the first time
00:31:31I'd stepped into
00:31:32the outside world.
00:31:33People,
00:31:33no,
00:31:34beings,
00:31:34were everywhere.
00:31:35Furred,
00:31:36scaled,
00:31:37winged.
00:31:37I felt like a ghost.
00:31:40The main city's
00:31:41practically a circus.
00:31:42She parked and dragged me
00:31:44into the first shop.
00:31:45Red lace.
00:31:46The scent of perfume
00:31:47hit me.
00:31:49Lace,
00:31:50satin,
00:31:50silk.
00:31:51I froze.
00:31:52It's not your style.
00:31:53That's the point.
00:31:54You've been wearing
00:31:55Sargis's hoodies.
00:31:56This is your awakening arc.
00:31:58My what?
00:31:59She kept handing me sets.
00:32:01Some tame,
00:32:01some scandalous.
00:32:02I tried on a deep green set.
00:32:04The soft fabric
00:32:05hugged my skin.
00:32:06Not too revealing.
00:32:07That one?
00:32:08That's the one.
00:32:09You look like you could
00:32:09kill a man
00:32:10and then write a love letter
00:32:11on his grave.
00:32:12I smiled faintly.
00:32:13Then my gaze drifted lower
00:32:14and I saw them.
00:32:15The scars.
00:32:16Long, silvery reminders
00:32:17slashed across my hips
00:32:18and the sides of my stomach
00:32:19like brands.
00:32:20The scars.
00:32:20They make it hard
00:32:21to see anything else.
00:32:22Those scars?
00:32:24That's armor, Noreen.
00:32:25That's survival.
00:32:27You don't hide them.
00:32:28You wear them
00:32:29like a goddamn crown.
00:32:30I wanted to believe her.
00:32:32But believing is easy
00:32:34when you're not the one
00:32:34living inside the body
00:32:35that remembers every scream.
00:32:37We moved on after that.
00:32:39Shoes,
00:32:39jewelry,
00:32:40dresses.
00:32:41At a street side cafe
00:32:42I barely touched my food
00:32:44but I nodded along
00:32:45to Hazmic's banter.
00:32:47By the time the sun
00:32:48began to dip
00:32:49our arms were full of bags.
00:32:52Lubricus,
00:32:52she stepped away to answer
00:32:53motioning for me to stay.
00:32:56I stared at the exit.
00:32:57The streets were crowded
00:32:58pulsing with energy.
00:33:00It would be impossible
00:33:00to track someone
00:33:01through that maze.
00:33:02My heart pounded.
00:33:04I hated myself
00:33:05for thinking it
00:33:05but the need for vengeance
00:33:07wouldn't let go.
00:33:08I moved,
00:33:09slowly at first
00:33:09pretending to browse
00:33:10a rack near the door.
00:33:12Then I slipped
00:33:13through the crowd
00:33:14like mist.
00:33:16Hazmic was still
00:33:16on the phone.
00:33:17He turned away.
00:33:19I ran.
00:33:21I moved like smoke.
00:33:23Weaving through clusters
00:33:24of shoppers,
00:33:24ducking into crowds.
00:33:25I looped around the block
00:33:26twice,
00:33:27letting bodies mask my scent.
00:33:28My memory flicked back
00:33:29to the turns we'd taken.
00:33:30Right on Temple Avenue,
00:33:31two blocks north.
00:33:31Then a side road
00:33:32called Moon's Hollow,
00:33:33past the bakery
00:33:34with the strawberry bread.
00:33:35Left at the bronze statue
00:33:36of the feathered chimera.
00:33:36I followed the map
00:33:37I'd stitched into my mind.
00:33:38My lungs burned.
00:33:39But I didn't stop.
00:33:40Not until I turned
00:33:41a final corner
00:33:42and found myself
00:33:43on a quieter street.
00:33:44There in the shadow
00:33:45of a crumbling tower,
00:33:46I leaned against the wall,
00:33:47panting.
00:33:48A weight crushed my chest.
00:33:49But vengeance
00:33:50had waited long enough.
00:33:51I didn't know
00:33:51where I was going.
00:33:52I only knew I was going
00:33:53to the snow wolf pack.
00:33:54To Joe.
00:33:54The streets of the city
00:33:55felt like a different world.
00:33:57People in clusters,
00:33:58merchants yelling,
00:33:59neon signs blinking.
00:34:00The snow wolf pack?
00:34:01A woman barely looked up
00:34:02from her phone
00:34:03and pointed south.
00:34:04That's hours away on foot,
00:34:05girl.
00:34:06You'll need transport.
00:34:07I nodded and kept walking.
00:34:08I had no money,
00:34:09no phone,
00:34:09no plant.
00:34:10I ducked into alleyways
00:34:11to breathe.
00:34:12When my legs went numb,
00:34:14I found a fountain
00:34:14at the edge of a plaza
00:34:15and collapsed beside it.
00:34:17The water shimmered
00:34:17like crystal
00:34:18under the city lights.
00:34:19I dipped my hands
00:34:20into drink.
00:34:21My reflection stared back,
00:34:23wild-eyed.
00:34:23What the hell
00:34:24was I doing?
00:34:25I hadn't thought this through.
00:34:27I'd romanticized vengeance,
00:34:28but I hadn't considered
00:34:30the logistics.
00:34:31The crowds
00:34:31had started thinning.
00:34:33Daylight had bled
00:34:33out of the sky.
00:34:34Most people had places
00:34:35to go.
00:34:36Homes,
00:34:36packs,
00:34:37families.
00:34:38I had nothing.
00:34:40The city suddenly felt
00:34:41like a mouth
00:34:42about to swallow me whole.
00:34:45I curled onto a bench,
00:34:47hugging my knees.
00:34:51Maybe I'd made a mistake.
00:34:54I eventually stumbled
00:34:55onto a bench
00:34:56by a bus stop,
00:34:57half limping
00:34:57and half dragging
00:34:58my body across the concrete.
00:34:59My knees buckled
00:35:00the moment I sat.
00:35:01My legs trembled
00:35:02from hours of walking
00:35:03with no direction.
00:35:04Goddess,
00:35:04what was I thinking?
00:35:05My lungs ached
00:35:06with every breath.
00:35:07My head throbbed.
00:35:08I was utterly spent.
00:35:09I was so stupid.
00:35:11I had made a split-second decision
00:35:12based on wanting to be free,
00:35:13to take control of my life,
00:35:15only to realize
00:35:15it wasn't as easy
00:35:16as I had made it sound
00:35:17in my head.
00:35:18Now I was stuck,
00:35:19exhausted,
00:35:19cold,
00:35:20and lost in a city
00:35:20I barely knew.
00:35:21I missed him.
00:35:22I hated how fast
00:35:23that thought came,
00:35:24how much it hurt.
00:35:24But I missed his gaze,
00:35:25his quiet presence,
00:35:26the way he made me
00:35:27feel seen and safe.
00:35:28I wanted to go back,
00:35:29to the steady hum
00:35:30of the corridors,
00:35:31to the scent of lavender
00:35:31on my pillows,
00:35:32to the quiet safety
00:35:33of knowing Hazmic
00:35:34would always be
00:35:34two steps behind me.
00:35:36But I didn't know how.
00:35:36No, I wanted revenge.
00:35:38That was the truth of it,
00:35:39wasn't it?
00:35:39No matter how much
00:35:40I missed the comfort
00:35:41of the palace,
00:35:42I couldn't pretend
00:35:42it would make everything right.
00:35:44It wouldn't undo
00:35:45what happened to me,
00:35:46wouldn't erase the nights
00:35:47I screamed into my pillow,
00:35:48or the way my body
00:35:49still flinched.
00:35:50The palace could offer peace,
00:35:52but not justice.
00:35:53And I was starving
00:35:54for justice.
00:35:54But what had I even
00:35:55been thinking?
00:35:56That I could just show up
00:35:57at the snow wolf pack
00:35:58and kill Joe
00:35:58with my bare hands?
00:35:59That vengeance
00:36:00would be waiting for me
00:36:01like a gift wrapped in fury?
00:36:02I had been so blinded
00:36:03by rage and hurt
00:36:04that I forgot
00:36:05I was just one girl,
00:36:06with scars still healing
00:36:07and barely enough strength
00:36:08to hold herself upright.
00:36:09But I couldn't let it go.
00:36:11I couldn't move on.
00:36:11Not while he was still out there,
00:36:13breathing freely,
00:36:14laughing,
00:36:14living a life untouched
00:36:15by the horror
00:36:16he inflicted on me.
00:36:17He ruined my life.
00:36:18He destroyed pieces of me
00:36:19I would never get back.
00:36:19I needed to look
00:36:20into his eyes
00:36:21and watch him realize
00:36:22I had survived.
00:36:23But right now,
00:36:24I was helpless.
00:36:25I curled on the bench,
00:36:26arms tucked tight
00:36:27into my chest,
00:36:28rocking gently
00:36:29as the night deepened
00:36:30and the city blurred
00:36:31around me.
00:36:32One minute,
00:36:32I was asleep.
00:36:33The next,
00:36:34I was in the air,
00:36:35hauled,
00:36:36like a sack of grain.
00:36:38Hey!
00:36:38Hey!
00:36:39Put me down!
00:36:40The man didn't flinch.
00:36:41His arms were like steel.
00:36:42I was dumped
00:36:43into the backseat
00:36:43of a car.
00:36:44This is kidnapping!
00:36:45He slid into the driver's seat
00:36:47and locked the doors.
00:36:48I'm sorry,
00:36:49your gracious majesty.
00:36:50Please pardon my caveman behavior.
00:36:51I need to get you back
00:36:52to the palace
00:36:52as soon as possible.
00:36:53His majesty is not
00:36:54in a good state of mind.
00:36:55Oh,
00:36:55so I wasn't being kidnapped.
00:36:57They found me so fast.
00:36:58I thought I was clever,
00:36:59blending in.
00:37:00I was being taken back
00:37:01to the palace.
00:37:01I pressed my forehead
00:37:02against the cool window.
00:37:04I hadn't even lasted
00:37:04a full day out here.
00:37:05I was such a fool.
00:37:06But worse,
00:37:07I was ashamed of how relieved
00:37:08I was that they came for me.
00:37:15And soon,
00:37:16to him.
00:37:17To the man
00:37:18whose anger
00:37:19might just burn hotter
00:37:20than the fire
00:37:21I carried in my own soul.
00:37:23As the car drew closer
00:37:24to the palace,
00:37:25anxiety coiled tighter
00:37:26in my chest.
00:37:27He was going to be furious.
00:37:28I deserved it.
00:37:29Sargas had been nothing
00:37:30but kind and patient.
00:37:31He gave me space,
00:37:32shielded me from a world
00:37:33I wasn't ready to face.
00:37:34And what did I do in return?
00:37:35Stop the car.
00:37:36I shouted,
00:37:37Stop the car.
00:37:37I didn't think I could face him.
00:37:38Ma'am?
00:37:39Now.
00:37:41The tire screeched
00:37:42as the vehicle jerked to a halt.
00:37:44Open the door.
00:37:45I can't.
00:37:46His majesty gave strict...
00:37:47Well, from what I've been told,
00:37:49I am her majesty.
00:37:50So doesn't that give me
00:37:51the authority
00:37:51to override a damn door lock?
00:37:53The lock disengaged.
00:37:54I stared at him,
00:37:55stunned that it worked.
00:37:55I threw the door open
00:37:56and the night air
00:37:57slapped me in the face.
00:37:58I didn't care.
00:37:59A deafening roar
00:38:00split the silence.
00:38:01A car came flying into view,
00:38:02tires skidded sideways
00:38:03and slammed to a halt
00:38:04just inches from me.
00:38:05The driver sang open so hard
00:38:07it slammed against the frame
00:38:08with a metallic crack.
00:38:09And then he was there.
00:38:10Sargas.
00:38:10I'd never seen him so disheveled.
00:38:12His jacket hung off one shoulder.
00:38:14His shirt half unbuttoned.
00:38:15He moved closer.
00:38:16Fuck.
00:38:17The moment his boots
00:38:18hit the pavement,
00:38:19he didn't stop.
00:38:21I was frozen where I stood,
00:38:23wind tugging at my hair,
00:38:25eyes wide with fear.
00:38:27He closed the distance
00:38:28until we were mere inches apart.
00:38:30He wrapped me in his arms.
00:38:32My body went rigid in surprise.
00:38:34Then I sagged against him.
00:38:36He buried his face in my hair,
00:38:38breathed me in.
00:38:39You're okay.
00:38:40Did anyone hurt you?
00:38:41Did you eat?
00:38:43You...
00:38:43His voice cracked.
00:38:44We'll talk when we get home.
00:38:46I nodded slowly.
00:38:48He pulled off his jacket
00:38:49and wrapped it around my shoulders.
00:38:51He guided me to his car.
00:38:55Neither of us spoke
00:38:56during the drive back.
00:38:58He glanced at me
00:38:59more times than he should,
00:39:01just to make sure
00:39:01I was still there.
00:39:02The palace gate loomed
00:39:04under the dark sky.
00:39:05He parked
00:39:06and we made our way up the steps
00:39:07and into the private elevator.
00:39:09I looked everywhere but at him.
00:39:10The doors opened
00:39:11and he led me to the room.
00:39:13The door closed behind them
00:39:14with a soft click.
00:39:15I stood in the middle of the room,
00:39:16still wrapped in his jacket.
00:39:20Why, Nareen?
00:39:21Why did you run?
00:39:23Do you have any idea
00:39:25what you put me through?
00:39:28I didn't ask you
00:39:29to worry about me.
00:39:30I'm not a child.
00:39:32You can't keep me
00:39:33locked in here
00:39:34like a prisoner.
00:39:37I wasn't keeping you here.
00:39:39I was protecting you.
00:39:42Protecting me?
00:39:43I didn't ask
00:39:44for your protection.
00:39:46I'm your mate!
00:39:47It's my responsibility
00:39:49to care you go again
00:39:50with that mate bullshit.
00:39:53I don't believe in it.
00:39:56I'm not responsive to it.
00:39:59I've never felt it.
00:40:01The only thing
00:40:01I've ever felt
00:40:02towards you
00:40:03is gratitude.
00:40:08Nareen.
00:40:09No.
00:40:10Let me finish.
00:40:14Lubricus cleared his throat.
00:40:19We shouldn't be here.
00:40:21They quietly stood and left.
00:40:23The door closed behind them.
00:40:34I never asked you
00:40:35to save me.
00:40:36You did all of that
00:40:37on your own.
00:40:38I'm grateful.
00:40:41But that doesn't mean
00:40:42you get to dictate
00:40:43how I live my life.
00:40:49I never did this
00:40:50because I expected
00:40:51something back.
00:40:57Then stop acting like
00:40:59I owe you something!
00:41:02My words hit him.
00:41:04His body locked up.
00:41:05He stared at me
00:41:06in disbelief.
00:41:08You say you're my mate,
00:41:10but I never felt it, Sargis.
00:41:12No strings pulled at my soul.
00:41:15No magic tethered me to you.
00:41:17He nodded slowly,
00:41:19biting the inside of his cheek.
00:41:20His hands trembled at his sides.
00:41:24You've been kind, yes,
00:41:27but caring isn't suffocating someone.
00:41:31Caring isn't making decisions for me
00:41:33and watching me
00:41:35like I'm a ticking bomb.
00:41:42Narian.
00:41:44You know what hurts the most?
00:41:46I almost believed
00:41:47you were different.
00:41:48But all this time,
00:41:50I know you've just been waiting
00:41:51for me to become
00:41:52something I'm not.
00:41:55Huh.
00:41:58Huh.
00:42:00Huh.
00:42:02Huh.
00:42:02Huh.
00:42:03Huh.
00:42:03Huh.
00:42:03Huh.
00:42:03Huh.
00:42:04You think because
00:42:05you gave me a soft bed
00:42:07and fed me
00:42:10and gave me your attention
00:42:11that I owe you my heart?
00:42:14You want to claim me
00:42:16like some prize you've won?
00:42:18He staggered back a step,
00:42:20unable to breathe.
00:42:21All he could do
00:42:21was stare at me
00:42:22like I'd just torn him in half.
00:42:32fuck, Narain!
00:42:34He grabbed a vase off the table
00:42:35and hurled it across the room.
00:42:43It shattered into a thousand sharp pieces
00:42:45against the wall,
00:42:47but it still didn't quiet the storm in his chest.
00:42:51You're right.
00:42:52I don't have any right to keep you here.
00:42:56I don't have the right to hope for something
00:42:59that clearly isn't there.
00:43:01He swore again,
00:43:02grabbing the edge of the table.
00:43:04You've got no idea what it's like
00:43:06devoting yourself to someone.
00:43:09I stayed up nights wondering if I was doing enough,
00:43:12if I was enough.
00:43:13But none of it mattered to you, did it?
00:43:18I looked away.
00:43:23You want to go?
00:43:24Then go.
00:43:26I won't stop you.
00:43:27You say you're not mine,
00:43:29I hear you.
00:43:31All I wanted was your happiness.
00:43:34If it doesn't lie in me,
00:43:36then so be it.
00:43:37I set you free.
00:43:39You don't owe me anything.
00:43:42Take what you need.
00:43:44Clothes, money, whatever.
00:43:49Just leave before I start begging you to stay.
00:43:52Because if I do,
00:43:54and you still walk away,
00:43:56I don't know if I'll recover from that.
00:43:59He turned away,
00:44:01unable to face me.
00:44:02Just go.
00:44:03I wasn't prepared for the sorrow reflected in his eyes.
00:44:07It wasn't a volatile pain that demanded attention.
00:44:10It was a quiet anguish that seemed to seep from his very soul.
00:44:14I never meant to hurt him.
00:44:15I didn't throw his kindness back in his face because I believed it was insincere.
00:44:20I did it because deep down I feared it might actually be genuine.
00:44:26I was used to striking first.
00:44:29Pushing people away before they could draw me too close.
00:44:33Striking out before I could be hurt.
00:44:35When he reached for me.
00:44:38When he took off his jacket and draped it over my shoulders and asked softly if I was okay.
00:44:44Panic flooded me.
00:44:46How could someone be so kind?
00:44:51It felt like a lie.
00:44:53I pushed him away to protect myself.
00:44:56To cling to the belief that he was just like the others.
00:45:00Untrustworthy.
00:45:01Indifferent.
00:45:03How could a man like Sargas care this deeply for someone like me?
00:45:07The mate bond?
00:45:09But I didn't feel it.
00:45:11All I felt was gratitude.
00:45:13Should I leave?
00:45:14That had always been the plan.
00:45:16To get out and find joy.
00:45:18To look the monster in the eye and kill him.
00:45:20And yet, I hesitated.
00:45:24The choice was in my hands now.
00:45:26Sargas had given it to me without resistance.
00:45:30I was finally free.
00:45:33So why did my chest ache when I thought of walking away?
00:45:37Maybe it was the way he was retreating.
00:45:40The way his broad shoulders, now slumped like the weight of the world, had finally crushed him.
00:45:47Or the way his eyes had dulled.
00:45:50Or the pain radiating off him like a storm.
00:45:53Soaking the room.
00:45:55But whatever it was, it did something to me.
00:45:59It reached into that steel vault I'd buried my heart in and twisted.
00:46:04I stood there, frozen.
00:46:07Watching him walk away felt like watching something irreversible happen.
00:46:11And for the first time in a long time,
00:46:14I didn't feel fear.
00:46:17I wanted to comfort him.
00:46:20I opened my mouth to speak.
00:46:23Nothing sharp or guarded or meant to protect me from imagined betrayals.
00:46:29But before I could say a single word, he turned back.
00:46:33If you have any request, or anything you want to take along,
00:46:37Ask anybody and you'll be given.
00:46:44Then he walked out of the room.
00:46:47And I just stood there, staring at the door.
00:46:51I waited for him all through the night.
00:46:55Not a single blink of sleep touched my eyes.
00:47:00I sat on the bed, hugging my knees, staring at the door.
00:47:05But he never came.
00:47:06This was the first time he had stayed away for this long.
00:47:11The first time he didn't sleep in here.
00:47:14Did he deserve what I said?
00:47:16No.
00:47:18No.
00:47:20Especially when I hadn't meant it.
00:47:23I just...
00:47:24Didn't know how to not lash out when I felt scared.
00:47:28Didn't know how to let good things in without suspecting the worst.
00:47:32I reached for the tablet on the bedside table.
00:47:35I remembered him showing me how to contact him through it.
00:47:39Just in case.
00:47:41I opened the message app.
00:47:43My fingers hovered above the keys.
00:47:46I'm sorry.
00:47:47Please come back.
00:47:49That's what every piece of me was screaming.
00:47:53But wouldn't that make me selfish?
00:47:57After everything I said?
00:48:02I dropped the tablet and buried my face in my hands.
00:48:07I didn't know how to fix this.
00:48:12A knock sounded on the door.
00:48:14My heart leaped.
00:48:16It's me, Nareen.
00:48:18Then crashed.
00:48:20Lupercus.
00:48:21I didn't expect him.
00:48:23I slid off the bed and padded to the door.
00:48:28I hesitated, then opened it slowly.
00:48:36Can I come in?
00:48:37I nodded.
00:48:39He stepped inside.
00:48:41I'm here to pick you up.
00:48:43His Royal Highness has made accommodation arrangements for you outside the palace.
00:48:49There's also a sum of money deposited in an account under your name.
00:48:53My heart twisted.
00:48:55He made plans for me already?
00:48:59After I threw his heart to the ground and stomped on it?
00:49:07I'm not going anywhere.
00:49:10You aren't?
00:49:12I don't want to leave anymore.
00:49:20Where's Sargas?
00:49:22I want to talk to him.
00:49:24I'm sorry.
00:49:26I can't reveal His Majesty's whereabouts.
00:49:31He's not in a good state of mind at the moment.
00:49:37Please, Lupercus.
00:49:41Let's assume I do take you to him.
00:49:44What would you do?
00:49:46Or say?
00:49:51Do you suddenly believe in the mate-bond now?
00:49:54His words hit me.
00:49:56What would I say?
00:49:57I'm sorry?
00:49:59And then what?
00:50:01I don't know.
00:50:02I don't know what I'd say.
00:50:06But I don't want him hurting because of me.
00:50:09You need to make a choice, Noreen.
00:50:11I can't take you to see him if you don't even know what you want.
00:50:14But don't give him hope if you know you'll never be able to see yourself with him.
00:50:20His words pierced through every layer of denial I had built.
00:50:24He wasn't being cruel, just honest.
00:50:28And the truth was, everything he said was right.
00:50:33I know the concept of mate doesn't make sense to you.
00:50:36That's okay.
00:50:42Only Lycans truly understand it.
00:50:45To be tethered to someone.
00:50:48It's like feeling something awaken in your bones and your blood.
00:50:54As though you were incomplete your entire life.
00:50:57And never knew it until that moment.
00:51:13Sargis is my cousin.
00:51:16We grew up together.
00:51:19One thing he wouldn't shut up about.
00:51:21The concept of mating.
00:51:23He searched for years.
00:51:27Each time he came back empty-handed, a part of him faded.
00:51:34Five years, Noreen.
00:51:37Five years of quiet misery.
00:51:42Until he found you.
00:51:53I have never seen him happier.
00:52:02Something about the way he said it twisted something in my chest.
00:52:07If you really get to know Sargis.
00:52:10If you let yourself be open-minded, even just a little.
00:52:15You'll see that he's gentle.
00:52:18And full of love.
00:52:21And everything he's done for you since the day you were brought here.
00:52:27Isn't that proof enough that he cares about you?
00:52:36The seventh day.
00:52:38Seven long, agonizing days.
00:52:39And still, no sign of Sargis.
00:52:42The loneliness had crept into me like a slow-acting poison.
00:52:46Curling its way through my chest until it sat heavy on my lungs.
00:52:49I never knew loneliness could hurt like this.
00:52:52I used to build my world around silence.
00:52:55I used to pride myself on not needing anyone.
00:52:58But now it felt different.
00:53:00The silence didn't feel safe anymore.
00:53:03It felt like a punishment.
00:53:04I curled up tighter on the bed.
00:53:07Wrapping his shirt tighter around me.
00:53:14It still smelled like him.
00:53:18Hasmik had left me a book.
00:53:20I finally cracked it open out of sheer desperation for distraction.
00:53:25The cover was spicy.
00:53:27But the story was gripping.
00:53:29The enemies to lovers trope was more than just spicy.
00:53:32It was intense, chaotic, and real.
00:53:35The heroine lashed out in fear and distrust.
00:53:37Only to realize she was falling in love without even meaning to.
00:53:41It felt so familiar.
00:53:42Like Sargis and me.
00:53:44I found a folded down page with a line.
00:53:48I hated him so much I couldn't breathe.
00:53:52I loved him so much I didn't know how to.
00:53:56Then their first kiss came.
00:54:01That image, lips breezing together like an apology and a promise,
00:54:06Dragged my memory back to that night.
00:54:09The fountain.
00:54:12I didn't even realize I was smiling.
00:54:15Or that I was kicking my feet in the air.
00:54:18Like some hopeless romantic.
00:54:20And then it got spicier.
00:54:23And as I read...
00:54:28I imagined it was us.
00:54:31Sargis and me.
00:54:34Should I stop?
00:54:35His breath scorched my skin.
00:54:37I shook my head.
00:54:38Because I didn't want to stop.
00:54:40He kissed my neck as if he wanted to bite it down.
00:54:43My fingers sank into his hair,
00:54:45gripping him like grasping the only driftwood.
00:54:48His fingers unbuttoned my buttons.
00:54:50One.
00:54:51Two.
00:54:52It wasn't him guiding me.
00:54:54It was me.
00:54:55My legs wrapped around his waist.
00:54:57At that moment, I wasn't bearing anything.
00:55:00I was taking something.
00:55:02He held my earlope and I trembled all over.
00:55:04Then I kissed him.
00:55:05It was my own initiative.
00:55:06His mouth has the taste I love.
00:55:07Sweet, hot, and addictive.
00:55:08I crumpled the bedsheet and he held my hand as if he wanted to sink down with me.
00:55:12At that moment, I was no longer a ruin.
00:55:14It was the fire he ignited.
00:55:15The thought was so jarring that I nearly dropped the book.
00:55:20My skin went hot.
00:55:23I snapped it shut like it had bitten me.
00:55:31I threw it across the room and buried my face into the throw pillow, groaning.
00:55:36Why was my brain like this?
00:55:41The silence pressed in again.
00:55:46Slowly, my thoughts faded and I drifted into sleep.
00:55:51I didn't know how long I'd been out, but a shadow fell over me.
00:55:59I stirred gruggily, blinking against the haze of sleep.
00:56:05His figure was retreating.
00:56:07My body moved before I could think.
00:56:11I grabbed his hand.
00:56:18Sargis.
00:56:19He turned.
00:56:21And when his eyes met mine, my heart ached.
00:56:25He looked exhausted.
00:56:28Dark shadows under his eyes.
00:56:30Tangled hair.
00:56:31Wrinkled shirt.
00:56:32Stubble on his jaw.
00:56:37His eyes were guarded, like he'd locked the real Sargis somewhere deep inside himself.
00:56:46I looked away, as shame crawled up my throat like a vine.
00:56:57I'm sorry.
00:57:05It's fine, Noreen.
00:57:07It's all good.
00:57:08No, it's not all good.
00:57:10You have no idea how guilty I feel for everything I said.
00:57:14I didn't mean all of it, at least not the way I said it.
00:57:19If you're only here because you feel guilty, you don't have to.
00:57:24You were just being honest.
00:57:26That's okay.
00:57:28No, I'm not staying because I feel bad.
00:57:32I'm staying because I want to.
00:57:37But I need you to understand that I'm not an easy person to be with.
00:57:41I had a pretty messed up child.
00:57:43It left scars.
00:57:44Deep ones.
00:57:46That kind of trauma doesn't just go away when someone shows up with kind eyes and good intentions.
00:57:51I lost my parents as soon as I was born.
00:57:54I was raised by PAC members.
00:57:55At first they were kind, until I turned seven.
00:57:59They had a child of their own.
00:58:01And suddenly, I wasn't part of the family anymore.
00:58:04I became a servant in their home.
00:58:07And then, and then, I spent three years in a dungeon.
00:58:14Total darkness.
00:58:16Alone.
00:58:18Tortured beyond imagination.
00:58:26I'm telling you this not so you'll pity me.
00:58:30I hope it helps you understand me.
00:58:34Even just a little.
00:58:35I don't know how to love Sargis.
00:58:38I don't know how to let myself be cared for.
00:58:41Without feeling the need to give something back.
00:58:45All this time I've been here, I felt grateful.
00:58:48But also, like a parasite.
00:58:53Narian.
00:58:56No, please let me finish.
00:58:59I know everything you've done.
00:59:00You did because you wanted to.
00:59:02You don't expect anything in return.
00:59:04But I can't help how I feel.
00:59:06I feel indebted.
00:59:08Like I'm just taking and taking.
00:59:11Without ever being able to give anything meaningful back.
00:59:14But the past few months have been the most wonderful of my life.
00:59:17And that safety has made me realize something else.
00:59:20I still have demons.
00:59:21Still have so much pain buried inside me.
00:59:24And that pain has kept me from wanting to accept happiness.
00:59:27From believing I even deserve it.
00:59:31And that's why I ran.
00:59:33Not because of you.
00:59:35Not because I wanted to hurt you.
00:59:39But because I needed to confront my past.
00:59:42If I ever wanted to move forward.
00:59:45As for the mate bond.
00:59:46It's true.
00:59:47I don't feel it.
00:59:49At least, not the way I'm supposed to.
00:59:52But Lubricus explained things.
00:59:55I'm sorry for hurting you, Sargis.
00:59:58You didn't deserve that.
00:59:59You're a wonderful man.
01:00:01But I'm not ready to be in something romantic.
01:00:03Not yet.
01:00:04I just...
01:00:05I don't think I'm in a place where I can give someone what they deserve without working on myself.
01:00:10But...
01:00:11If you're willing to wait.
01:00:12To be patient and stay beside me.
01:00:14Not because you're hoping I'll change.
01:00:16Or that I'll fall in love with you overnight.
01:00:18But because you see me.
01:00:19And you want to help me figure out who I am and what I want.
01:00:22Then I'd like that.
01:00:24I'd really like that.
01:00:25When I finally looked at him again, his expression had completely changed.
01:00:30He was smiling.
01:00:32Not that half-hearted, broken smile.
01:00:36A real one.
01:00:38I understand.
01:00:40I understand.
01:00:40And I mean that.
01:00:41Picture two.
01:00:42Thank you for trusting me enough to open up.
01:00:47I know it wasn't easy.
01:00:50I'm going to go take a shower.
01:00:51He smiled.
01:00:53Then made his way to the bathroom.
01:00:55The door clicked shut behind him.
01:00:58I stood in the room.
01:00:59My heart beat steadier.
01:01:01There was still a long way to go between us.
01:01:04But at least, I hadn't lost him.
01:01:07The loud thud of the bedroom door crashing open jolted me out of sleep.
01:01:10I sat up so fast the world spun.
01:01:13Hasmik stood in the doorway like a vengeful goddess of war.
01:01:16Her eyes cut straight through me.
01:01:19Hasmik.
01:01:22You fucking bitch.
01:01:25I winced.
01:01:26I knew I deserved it.
01:01:27What you did was fucked up.
01:01:29Really fucked up.
01:01:32I know.
01:01:33Let me finish.
01:01:34I was so scared.
01:01:35I have never been that terrified in my life.
01:01:37My mind raced through every terrible possibility.
01:01:39But.
01:01:41I'm sorry.
01:01:42I forgive you.
01:01:43Her words hit me hard.
01:01:44Not because I doubted them.
01:01:46But because I knew I didn't deserve them.
01:01:47I don't know what you were thinking.
01:01:49But I hope you found whatever clarity you were chasing.
01:01:51I'm just glad you're safe.
01:01:53I'm truly grateful for you, Hasmik.
01:01:55You're like a real sister I never expected.
01:01:57But truly needed.
01:01:59I missed you too.
01:02:02Oh my god.
01:02:03I didn't miss the way her spine straightened.
01:02:06Or how her pupils dilated slightly in alarm.
01:02:08What?
01:02:09What is it?
01:02:11Anika just arrived at the palace.
01:02:14And who might that be?
01:02:15Sargas and her.
01:02:17They used to fool around.
01:02:19A lot.
01:02:20They were fuckmates.
01:02:21Hearing that Sargas had a fuckmate, who was currently in the palace, scraped something raw inside me.
01:02:26Though I didn't know how to feel.
01:02:27It wasn't as if I'd expected celibity.
01:02:30Especially not from a leakin king.
01:02:32Sex was casual here.
01:02:33Almost ritualistic among alphas and warriors.
01:02:36But still.
01:02:37There was this tang in my chest.
01:02:39Like the taste of blood when you've bitten your own tongue but pretend it doesn't sting.
01:02:42I wasn't jealous, I don't think.
01:02:44I had no claim on Sargas.
01:02:46Not truly.
01:02:47Not yet.
01:02:47But something inside me recoiled at the idea of him with another.
01:02:50Was she beautiful?
01:02:51Dominant?
01:02:52Submissive?
01:02:52Did he care?
01:02:53Or was she just another blur in a long line of bodies used to silence the beast inside him?
01:02:57I tried not to care.
01:02:58God, I tried.
01:02:59But I did.
01:03:00And that terrified me.
01:03:01Don't worry, Narain.
01:03:02She might be here on diplomatic matters.
01:03:04Sometimes she represents her brother at summits and visitations.
01:03:07Her words were meant to soothe, but they barely skimmed the surface of the storm inside me.
01:03:10I gave a small nod.
01:03:12Or maybe it was a hum.
01:03:13I couldn't tell.
01:03:13The door burst open.
01:03:14A woman stepped into the room like she owned the palace.
01:03:17She had the kind of beauty that punched the air from one's lungs.
01:03:19Her dark brown hair flowed behind her like a cape.
01:03:22I observed silently.
01:03:24She wore a soft pastel gown that hugged her curves.
01:03:26Why she's on his bed.
01:03:27And more importantly, why she's wearing his clothes.
01:03:31Princess Royal.
01:03:32Still, to what do we owe this unexpected visit?
01:03:36Answer the damn question.
01:03:37I saw the way Hazmic clenched her fists.
01:03:40I half expected her to spit a retorque back, but instead she drew in a sharp breath.
01:03:44Both women turned toward the door.
01:03:46Sargas and Lupercus burst into the room.
01:03:48Sargas looked like he'd run the whole palace down to get here.
01:03:51Monika.
01:03:51She stalked across the room, swaying her hips sexually, her heels clicking like the toll of
01:03:55a bell.
01:03:55She grabbed his face with both hands and kissed him, right on the lip.
01:03:59My heart didn't just sink.
01:04:01It crashed.
01:04:02Like a mirror thrown from a hundred stories high.
01:04:04I closed my eyes and turned my back, not wanting to see anymore.
01:04:07What the fuck was that for, Anika?
01:04:09What?
01:04:09Don't you miss me?
01:04:10He didn't answer.
01:04:11And when his eyes flicked toward me, I had already turned away, retreating into myself
01:04:16again.
01:04:16I missed you and came to surprise you, but instead I found another woman in your bed.
01:04:21So who's the slut?
01:04:22She is not a slut.
01:04:23The woman you're referring to is my mate.
01:04:26Anika stared at me.
01:04:27Then she burst out laughing.
01:04:29You joke too much.
01:04:31I know she's just another body to warm your bed.
01:04:33Sargas stepped toward her, with enough heat in his eyes to melt through steel.
01:04:37Your diplomatic status buys you patience, not the right to disrespect my mate in my home.
01:04:42One more word and the guards will escort you out.
01:04:46You wouldn't.
01:04:48Try me.
01:04:49Oneika huffed and flipped her hair as she stalked out, followed by Lupercus, while Hasmik gave
01:04:55me the faintest smile and slipped away.
01:04:58The room was left with just me and Sargas.
01:05:02Silence settled like thick fog.
01:05:04I didn't know she was coming.
01:05:06I swear it, Noreen.
01:05:07I would have shielded you from this shit if I'd had even a hint.
01:05:10I said nothing.
01:05:12I didn't kiss her back.
01:05:14I hope you trust me enough to know that's not who I am anymore.
01:05:17Not with you in the picture.
01:05:18I'm not mad.
01:05:19You're not?
01:05:20No.
01:05:22I'm just...
01:05:23I don't know what I'm feeling.
01:05:24I just...
01:05:25hate how it made me feel, seeing that.
01:05:29Do you want me to ask her to leave?
01:05:32Can you?
01:05:33I'm the supreme alpha of this kingdom.
01:05:35There's not much I can't do.
01:05:36No.
01:05:37That'll just make it worse.
01:05:39Politically.
01:05:39For you.
01:05:40I didn't realize how tightly I'd been holding myself together until I leaned my head against
01:05:44him.
01:05:44And it felt...
01:05:45right.
01:05:46His shoulder was broad and warm.
01:05:48I didn't understand it fully, this instinct and pull.
01:05:51But I followed it anyway.
01:05:53It wasn't even about the kiss.
01:05:55Not entirely.
01:05:56It was about how easily she'd touched him.
01:05:59I hadn't earned the right to feel this way.
01:06:02We weren't bound yet.
01:06:04Hadn't exchanged vows or promises.
01:06:08She's really pretty.
01:06:10Noreen.
01:06:11It's not a competition.
01:06:12And even if it was...
01:06:14I wouldn't win.
01:06:16I'm not like her.
01:06:17I'm not loud or sharp or confident.
01:06:18I just...
01:06:19exist.
01:06:21Quietly.
01:06:21You don't have to be like her.
01:06:23But you were with her.
01:06:24I fucked her, Noreen.
01:06:26That's not the same as what I have with you.
01:06:28Resting my head against him, I looked at this infuriating, loyal, complex man.
01:06:32Who wouldn't want him?
01:06:33I was only with her because it was temporary and convenient, until we each found what we
01:06:37truly wanted.
01:06:38You don't owe me an explanation.
01:06:40You're an adult.
01:06:40I'm not angry, just surprised, and it reminded me how little I actually know about you.
01:06:45Then ask.
01:06:46I don't know what to ask.
01:06:48When I'm not working, which is rare, I like to travel alone sometimes to see the world without
01:06:52the weight of a crown.
01:06:53I blinked.
01:06:54It was hard to imagine him as anything but the supreme alpha.
01:06:56I dabble in sports like basketball and swimming, and I love to cook.
01:06:59Submerging in water feels peaceful and untouchable, and my three-pointer is pretty good.
01:07:02You?
01:07:04Love to cook?
01:07:05Careful.
01:07:05You're underestimating me.
01:07:07At night, Sargas turned over on the sofa.
01:07:09He thought I was asleep.
01:07:10I wasn't.
01:07:10My eyes were closed, but every sense was tuned to him.
01:07:13The creak of leather, his breathing, and his scent of cedar and honeysuckle soaked into
01:07:16his shirt I was wearing, filling every inch of air.
01:07:18I couldn't escape it, and didn't want to.
01:07:20A flash crossed my mind.
01:07:22Him in the kitchen, sleeves rolled up, muscles moving as he chopped vegetables.
01:07:28I imagined those hands on me, fingertips tracing down my collarbone, inch by inch.
01:07:36My breathing changed.
01:07:38I bit my lip and buried my face in the pillow, knowing I shouldn't be thinking this, when
01:07:42my body still remembered the pain.
01:07:44But Sargas wasn't Joe.
01:07:45That thought was a small flame, burning a hole through my chest.
01:07:49The next morning, after I showered, the scent of food drifted from the kitchen.
01:07:53Sargas was cooking.
01:07:54I watched him pull out Wagyu tenderloin, garlic, fresh herbs, and truffle butter to
01:07:57prepare an elaborate breakfast.
01:07:59He began with a palate cleanser.
01:08:00Cucumber juice, elderflower, and mint syrup in a tiny ceramic spoon topped with an edible
01:08:04flower petal.
01:08:05The main dish was black truffle Wagyu steak with bone marrow glaze, seared in a dry skillet
01:08:10and basted with garlic, herbs, and truffle butter.
01:08:13He turned roasted bone marrow into a creamy glaze and poured it over the steak.
01:08:18Is there a banquet?
01:08:20Thankfully, no.
01:08:20I'm making breakfast.
01:08:22For us.
01:08:23Is there anything I can help with?
01:08:25Yeah.
01:08:25I need you to keep turning this batter.
01:08:27The third course was flaky croissants topped with goat cheese, truffle oil, herbs, pomegranate
01:08:32seeds, candied walnuts, and honey infused with thyme.
01:08:35You know, you do have clothes of your own now.
01:08:37I noticed the closet had been rearranged, but maybe I'm just used to your clothes.
01:08:42They feel comfortable.
01:08:44I felt his gaze travel over me and saw him quickly turn away.
01:08:48But I pretended not to notice.
01:08:50We moved around the kitchen in an unspoken rhythm, handing off utensils, stealing glances.
01:08:57It felt natural.
01:08:58The dining table was a canvas of colors and scents.
01:09:02His eyes lit up.
01:09:04It was our first formal meal together using the dining table.
01:09:10How do you cook this well?
01:09:12I have my secrets.
01:09:14We washed the dishes together.
01:09:16She hummed softly under her breath, and I found myself humming along.
01:09:21I have something to do later, so I'll leave first.
01:09:25But actually, I went to Onika's room.
01:09:28I'd had enough.
01:09:29Explain, Sargis.
01:09:31Your subjects refuse to talk.
01:09:32As I already explained, Onika, the woman you met is my mate, and you will treat her and
01:09:37all my subjects with respect.
01:09:39You say she's your mate, but I smell no mark of claim on either of you, so no, I don't
01:09:43believe that nonsense.
01:09:44Whether or not you believe she's my mate doesn't change the fact that she is.
01:09:47An unmated male is still fair game, Sargis.
01:09:51I didn't come for my brother.
01:09:52I came for you.
01:09:54It's been so long since someone fucked me so hard my legs trembled.
01:09:59You won't dismiss my bond with my mate for your fantasies.
01:10:02Stay away from what's not yours, or you're finished here.
01:10:04Fine.
01:10:04I'll behave for now, but I'm staying for a month.
01:10:06Karagny is beautiful this time of year.
01:10:08Onika, when we agreed to be each other's sexual partners, we made a clear boundary.
01:10:12That it was only that.
01:10:13A temporary outlet.
01:10:14We agreed to part ways once we found our mates.
01:10:16I found mine, so you need to move on.
01:10:18I never wanted to be bound to someone I didn't choose.
01:10:20Unlike you, who worships lifelong belonging.
01:10:22A philosophy I never agreed with.
01:10:23Why should I accept a stranger because of some ancient curse?
01:10:26I'd rather die alone.
01:10:27Look at my brother.
01:10:27His mate has emaculated him into a shadow of his former alpha self.
01:10:30You don't need to tell me any of this.
01:10:31Your opinions on the bond, your brother's mate, your own fears, that's your path to walk.
01:10:34It has nothing to do with me.
01:10:36Well, that's sad.
01:10:37Came here hoping to convince you otherwise.
01:10:38To propose that we become chosen mates.
01:10:40That we take what we had, what we were, and make it permanent.
01:10:42That will never happen, not in this life or the next.
01:10:44I would rather die than leave Nureen.
01:10:45Give me one month if I can't get you into bed by then, I'll drop it.
01:10:49But if I do, you'll see the bond is just hormones and ancient magic.
01:10:53I'm not playing this game with you.
01:10:54This ends now.
01:10:55You need to leave.
01:10:56You can't do that, Sargis.
01:10:58Unless you want to offend my brother and start a diplomatic war.
01:11:00After all, I'm here under his protection, as his official assistant.
01:11:04Would be a shame if your kingdom suddenly lost trade privileges with the East, couldn't it?
01:11:08If you so much as breathe near my mate again, I will take that risk.
01:11:12I will go to war with your brother, burn the treaties, and let the gods bear witness to
01:11:16what I do, if it means getting you the hell out of here.
01:11:19The next morning, Sargis had already left.
01:11:21Matters in the southern borders needed his oversight.
01:11:23He said he'd return by midday.
01:11:24I was alone.
01:11:25The silence pressed in slowly, like fog.
01:11:27I wandered through the sweet barefoot, dragging my fingers along the velvet edges of the furniture,
01:11:31trying to chase away the restlessness creeping into my bones.
01:11:34I tried not to think about his ex, the beautiful, poised woman who still haunted the palace halls
01:11:38like a ghost, with a history tied to his body.
01:11:40But I believed him.
01:11:41That was the scary part.
01:11:42I had begun to trust Sargis, tentatively and quietly.
01:11:45He earned my trust by shielding me, sitting with me in silence, and never pressuring me
01:11:49to be anything other than myself.
01:11:51I was his mate.
01:11:52No doubt about that, even if I still didn't fully understand what it meant for me.
01:11:56My thoughts turned to Joe, and the pack that was called mine.
01:11:59Were they still the same?
01:12:01Had anything changed?
01:12:02Were they building families?
01:12:04Laughing in the places where I had once cried, content to forget the girl they left to rot?
01:12:08But maybe I didn't need to pursue Joe.
01:12:10Not now.
01:12:11Maybe what I needed more than anything was peace.
01:12:16Peace with myself.
01:12:19Peace with the shattered pieces of my life.
01:12:21I let Hazmut talk me into breakfast, maybe because of her hopeful smile, or simply because
01:12:26I was tired of hiding in the dark.
01:12:27At the head of an intimidating obsidian dining table, I felt like prey among lycans, especially
01:12:32with Sargash's mountain of a father sitting at the far end.
01:12:35Anika lounged across from him, faking disinterest, but watching everything.
01:12:38I stood awkwardly, wringing my fingers, unsure whether to sit, wait, or run back to my room.
01:12:44Good morning, sir.
01:12:45And good morning to you too, ma'am.
01:12:47The pressure of their stares made me want to sink through the marble floor.
01:12:50You don't even know how to act properly like a queen.
01:12:53I lowered my gaze intentionally.
01:12:55Straighten your spine.
01:12:56Square your shoulders.
01:12:57Lift your chin.
01:12:58My body obeyed without thought, snapping into place like an over-trained puppet.
01:13:02Hazmun wrapped her warm arms around me, guided me to a seat near Onika, and sat beside me
01:13:07like a shield.
01:13:08Give her a break, auntie.
01:13:09She's still new to all of this.
01:13:11That's all she's done since she arrived.
01:13:14Catch a break.
01:13:17The room grew colder.
01:13:19I could feel Onika's gaze sliding over me like oil.
01:13:23Your Highness, I know I shouldn't interfere in matters of the throne,
01:13:26but looking at her, she's clearly unfit to be queen.
01:13:28She doesn't know proper court etiquette.
01:13:30She doesn't bear the mark of a mate or the crown of a queen.
01:13:32And should a real threat arises, she'd be your greatest liability.
01:13:35Her voice was calm, almost pitying.
01:13:37But the venom beneath it was unmistakable.
01:13:39I swallowed hard and clenched my fingers tightly in my lap.
01:13:42I didn't know what to say.
01:13:44I didn't know how to defend myself in a world that had already decided I didn't belong.
01:13:48Onika, I may be retired, but like you said,
01:13:51you shouldn't interfere in matters that don't concern you.
01:13:53And regardless of your opinion, she is my son's mate.
01:13:55That makes her the future queen of this kingdom.
01:13:57My eyes sting, sharp and unexpected.
01:13:59I hadn't even spoken, and yet someone stood up for me.
01:14:01I felt Hasmik's hand slip into mine under the table.
01:14:04She gave it a squeeze.
01:14:05I quickly blinked the tears away.
01:14:07Of course, Rajababa.
01:14:09Pardon my intrusion.
01:14:10Looks like Sargas is here to scoop you up and keep you hidden away.
01:14:14The heavy double doors creaked open behind us.
01:14:17I turned just as Sargas and Lupercus entered the vast dining hall.
01:14:21The moment our eyes met, my chest eased.
01:14:25He made his way straight to me, slipped into the seat beside mine,
01:14:29and without a word, draped his arm across the back of my chair.
01:14:39Are you okay?
01:14:41I nodded, barely.
01:14:43But he understood.
01:14:45It is lovely to finally meet you, dear.
01:14:49It's nice to meet you too, sir.
01:14:51Please, call me Hyrik.
01:14:53I've always wanted a daughter.
01:14:55Sargas, I know you think I'm being harsh,
01:14:57but you've seen how restless the court has grown
01:14:59with the Queen's throne empty for nearly seven months.
01:15:03Had it really been seven months since I was brought here?
01:15:06So tell me, is she going to ascend it or not?
01:15:10Suddenly I felt everyone's eyes on me
01:15:11and shrunk back as her words wrapped around my spine like chains.
01:15:15Mother, I told you she's not ready.
01:15:17And this isn't the time for that talk with a diplomat present.
01:15:20Oh, me?
01:15:21Don't mind me.
01:15:22I'm staying out of this.
01:15:23Her smirk said otherwise.
01:15:24We can leave right now if you want to.
01:15:26I glanced around the table.
01:15:28Hasmik smiled.
01:15:29Lupercus seemed detached.
01:15:30Sargas' father stayed neutral
01:15:32and his mother barely hide her disdain.
01:15:34Could I really just stand and leave this mess?
01:15:36I shook my head slowly.
01:15:38I didn't want to give them that satisfaction.
01:15:39Breakfast ended, thankfully.
01:15:41Sargas held my hand the whole time.
01:15:43Even when I barely touched my food,
01:15:45I just pushed things around my plate.
01:15:47I watched his mother.
01:15:49Aveline was brilliant, cunning, respected,
01:15:51but gentle was not her.
01:15:53She didn't know how to soften her words.
01:15:54If Sargas had found me the traditional way,
01:15:57I would have been sent to the Alpha Magus' wing
01:15:59for a month of seclusion.
01:16:00His mother would have trained me in etiquette,
01:16:02politics,
01:16:03and the nuances of being mated to a king.
01:16:05That path was never mine.
01:16:07Tradition stopped mattering the moment
01:16:09he pulled me out of that compound,
01:16:11broken and bleeding.
01:16:12They didn't know me.
01:16:13They didn't see what I saw.
01:16:15They didn't see me flinch at raised voices
01:16:17or curl into myself when the memories came.
01:16:20The breakfast was lovely.
01:16:22He stood and left.
01:16:25Oh, Nika,
01:16:26I hope you'll finish whatever you came for
01:16:27because this isn't the right time
01:16:28for you to be here.
01:16:31Of course, Rajababa.
01:16:33See you later, Dustys.
01:16:35Have a lovely rest of the day.
01:16:37The tension of the morning faded,
01:16:39leaving only a quiet calm.
01:16:41For the first time in a long while,
01:16:43I felt at peace here.
01:16:45After Sargas left,
01:16:46I went back to the room.
01:16:47Breakfast had shocked me awake.
01:16:48I already knew I didn't fit in,
01:16:50but today showed me just how deep
01:16:51the divide really was.
01:16:53I looked in the mirror.
01:16:54Same girl,
01:16:55same curls,
01:16:55same eyes,
01:16:56but I stood differently now.
01:16:57The subtle slump of my shoulders.
01:16:59Hesitancy.
01:17:00Queen.
01:17:00The word rang in my mind like a bell.
01:17:03Could I really do that?
01:17:04Could I be her?
01:17:05A sharp pulse bloomed on my forehead.
01:17:07My hands strut up instinctively,
01:17:09pressing against the familiar spot of the tattoo.
01:17:12The one I thought was nothing more
01:17:13than a mysterious mark of fate.
01:17:15My knees buckled,
01:17:16and I grabbed the dresser.
01:17:17This wasn't a hallucination,
01:17:19the glow was real.
01:17:20Brilliant and alive,
01:17:22etched right across my forehead like a band.
01:17:24Something stirred inside me.
01:17:26My eyes fluttered shut.
01:17:28Then the world exploded.
01:17:29I could hear everything.
01:17:31Cutlerary clicking floors away,
01:17:32and faint conversations
01:17:33through the thick palace walls.
01:17:35Red.
01:17:36That same red I'd seen once before.
01:17:38The same red that terrified me
01:17:39that night I first shifted.
01:17:41It was back.
01:17:42I stumbled away from the mirror,
01:17:44one hand covering my mouth.
01:17:45My wolf.
01:17:47She was stirring.
01:17:49No.
01:17:51Awakening.
01:17:53It was past midnight
01:17:55when I finally heard the elevator ding
01:17:56and smelled Sargas coming down the hall.
01:17:59But tonight,
01:18:00beneath his primal scent,
01:18:01I caught a sicky sweetness.
01:18:03Annika,
01:18:03and my stomach twisted.
01:18:05His footsteps soft,
01:18:06he eased the door open
01:18:07and slipped into the room,
01:18:08thinking I was asleep.
01:18:09He padded into the closet,
01:18:11clothes rustling,
01:18:12but all I could focus on was her.
01:18:14Her scent lingered in the air between us.
01:18:18He came out of the closet in his soft pajamas
01:18:20and settled onto the leather couch.
01:18:22He picked up the spoon.
01:18:23He liked the food I made,
01:18:24but he still reeked of her.
01:18:26Why had he been with her?
01:18:27Why did her scent cling to him so brazenly,
01:18:29and why did it hurt so much?
01:18:31His gaze pulled me from my spiraling thoughts,
01:18:33so I squeezed my eyes shut
01:18:34as he moved closer and closer.
01:18:35You know I know you're awake, right?
01:18:37Shit.
01:18:38Busted.
01:18:38I kept my eyes shut stubbornly.
01:18:40Noreen,
01:18:40You're a terrible actress.
01:18:42Your eyes are twitching,
01:18:43your breathing is unseated,
01:18:43and you're clutching the sheet
01:18:44like it insulted your ancestors.
01:18:46I cracked one eye open,
01:18:47and our gaze is locked.
01:18:48I saw him,
01:18:49not just as Sargas the Supreme Alpha,
01:18:51but as mine.
01:18:52I wasn't pretending to sleep.
01:18:54I was trying to,
01:18:55until all the noise you made.
01:18:56Noise?
01:18:57Me?
01:18:57I was careful not to wake you.
01:18:59I needed a quick distraction.
01:19:01My wolf was awake,
01:19:02and he could never find out.
01:19:03You're a little late today.
01:19:05Yeah.
01:19:05Had a lot of things to take care of.
01:19:08Like her?
01:19:09Was Onika one of those things?
01:19:11Hmm.
01:19:13Something happened, though.
01:19:16Onika came to my office,
01:19:20and she tried to force herself on me.
01:19:23What?
01:19:23Nothing happened.
01:19:25I swear, Noreen.
01:19:26I pushed her away.
01:19:27I would never...
01:19:28Why...
01:19:29Why are you telling me that?
01:19:31Because I didn't want there to be
01:19:32any misunderstandings between us.
01:19:35Especially not when it comes to Onika.
01:19:37I stared at him,
01:19:37dazed.
01:19:38Why was he so open and honest
01:19:40when he could have easily lied?
01:19:42For dinner.
01:19:43It was delicious.
01:19:44I swallowed hard.
01:19:45He was giving consistently,
01:19:47patiently,
01:19:48vulnerably,
01:19:48and I was still hiding.
01:19:50Still keeping secrets.
01:19:52Sargas.
01:19:53The mate bond.
01:19:55What would happen if,
01:19:56eventually,
01:19:57my wolf awakens?
01:19:59How do I know if what I'm feeling
01:20:00is really mine,
01:20:01or just something
01:20:02the bond wants me to feel?
01:20:04I will always be here.
01:20:05The morning sunlight spilled across the room.
01:20:09I sat at the edge of the bed.
01:20:11My eyes wandered to the sofa.
01:20:13Empty.
01:20:15The blanket neatly folded,
01:20:17like he hadn't even used it.
01:20:20He never made noise when he left in the mornings.
01:20:23Never woke me on purpose.
01:20:27But today I knew the moment he left.
01:20:30How could I not know?
01:20:33Every shift of his body on that sofa,
01:20:36every time the leather creaked beneath his weight,
01:20:39every subtle exhale as he tried and failed to get comfortable,
01:20:43every little sound stirred me awake.
01:20:46He was a king.
01:20:47And yet,
01:20:49night after night,
01:20:50he surrendered his comfort,
01:20:51sleeping on a couch far too short for his frame,
01:20:55curled up like an exile in his own home.
01:20:58All because of me.
01:21:00The tension in his shoulders.
01:21:03The strain in his back.
01:21:07The quiet way he endured it
01:21:09without ever asking for more.
01:21:13The memory of last night tugged at me.
01:21:15How he'd confessed about Onika.
01:21:18How he'd looked so sincere.
01:21:20So careful not to hurt me or spark jealousy.
01:21:24Withersifrishin.
01:21:25Even though I had no claim over him.
01:21:28This bond.
01:21:29This man.
01:21:30The way he cared so freely without expectation.
01:21:35It shook me.
01:21:43Maybe it would have been easier if he were cruel.
01:21:47If he yelled and demanded.
01:21:50But Sargas didn't do any of that.
01:21:54He
01:21:55was one of a kind.
01:21:58I decided to leave the room.
01:22:02I wanted to know more about the kingdom.
01:22:05About Sargas.
01:22:08About who I was supposed to become.
01:22:12I texted Hazmik.
01:22:14She replied quickly.
01:22:15We met in the hallway.
01:22:18Look who finally decided to come out of her shell.
01:22:23We walked side by side.
01:22:25She sighed.
01:22:27I want to apologize.
01:22:29For the breakfast.
01:22:32You were thrown into something you didn't ask for.
01:22:39It wasn't your fault.
01:22:41Then I smelled her.
01:22:43Onika.
01:22:44My face scrunched in disgust.
01:22:47Hazmik's eyes narrowed.
01:22:48She picked up her pace and opened the door with more force than necessary.
01:22:53My heart jumped into my throat.
01:22:55Onika was in Sargas' study.
01:22:57She turned her head slowly.
01:22:59Her gaze landing on Hazmik first.
01:23:01Then on me.
01:23:03Her eyes narrowed.
01:23:06Oh.
01:23:07Did I interrupt a study date?
01:23:13Noreen, don't leave.
01:23:16I can explain.
01:23:21I wasn't going to leave.
01:23:22The very sight of you sickens me.
01:23:25You don't know him like I do.
01:23:27You never will.
01:23:28He's only doing this because of the bond.
01:23:31It messes with your head.
01:23:32So don't delude yourself.
01:23:34Don't pretend he loves you.
01:23:36Because he doesn't.
01:23:38Onika lunged at Hazmik.
01:23:42In a second, she had Hazmik pinned against the wall, digging her claws into her throat.
01:23:49Then Sargas was there.
01:23:51He ripped Onika's hand from Hazmik's throat.
01:23:57Hazmik collapsed to the ground, coughing hard.
01:24:01Never in your life lay your hands on any of my subjects again.
01:24:04This is a royal decree.
01:24:06Effective immediately, you will pack your things and leave the palace.
01:24:10You've repeatedly bypassed protocol, insulted my mate, assaulted my subjects, and undermined my authority as king.
01:24:16No, no, no, no.
01:24:20Surely you wouldn't invoke a royal decree just because she disrespected me first?
01:24:26She dared to address me like an equal!
01:24:29But Sargas didn't back down.
01:24:31Onika stared at him.
01:24:32Then she looked at me.
01:24:33And there it was.
01:24:34Hatred.
01:24:35She screamed, and it made my skin crawl.
01:24:37Her voice was so grating, so abrasive, that I found myself wishing she would just stop speaking.
01:24:42Forever.
01:24:43A pulse throbbed across my forehead.
01:24:45I blinked.
01:24:46She was still ranting, but her mouth was moving.
01:24:49I couldn't hear a thing.
01:24:51Not a single syllable.
01:24:53She paused mid-tirade, blinked in confusion, and brought her hand up to her throat.
01:24:58She opened her mouth again.
01:25:00No sound.
01:25:01She clutched her throat with both hands.
01:25:04Her eyes darted frantically.
01:25:06Sargas thought she was acting.
01:25:14But I could feel her, I could feel her, behind the door.
01:25:20Even though she was no longer in the room.
01:25:22That I just can't have lost a factor of tudạnh to mention from the woman that I can say nothing.
01:25:23Iiliz.
01:25:23I know that you'reini.
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